Beauty Within

Fuck Me Pretty
2004-08-22 12:22:25 (UTC)

I'm Up Your Ass.

GOD!!!! I FEEL SO UGLY!!!!

All my friends are so beautiful and so sexy and then there
is me. I just feel so gross. Why would anybody want this?
How can anyone love this? How can ANYONE care?!

I'm so glad Matt is coming home in At least 6 hours. It's
5:12 am right now. Keith and Becca are watching a movie. I
miss my brother. I just wanna hug him and not let go.

I feel like Mike thinks I'm ugly.

I want to talk to Jeremy.

I had 11 different people in my house today. Malia, Keith,
Becca, Ali, Tayler, Jeremy, Ian, Justin, Mark, Josh, and
of course me. Not all of the at the same time and only I
saw Josh and Mark cuz they left fast and I don't remember
why.

I feel bad for Ali and Josh. Don't feel like talking about
why. But I love Ali so much, I'm so glad we are friend
again. and I really like Josh and Mark, they are so sweet
and yah.


Ok so truth? I've always like Jerimiah. No not Godack. Not
all of you know him, only a select few. I've known him
almost my whole life and I always used to want him to like
me. I wanted to know what it was like for someone like him
to think you were beautiful. Then today I told Becca I
think he likes me cuz of how hes been acting and she
answered like "duh Kim, where ya been? i coulda told you
that" but idk if he does. maybe he is just a flirt. but i
mean like he is so different around me then he used to be.
he like hits on me and oh we were walking to Ali's house
for desert and him and Michael were talking to Michaels
house and he came and gave me a hug and so they walked
with us to the top of Alis street and we went our seperate
ways but while we were walking he had my arm around my and
I had my hand ontop of the one on my shoulder and he kept
moving his fingers till eventually we were holding hands
and just idk. I can't tell if he does and idk if I wanna
know. I mean yes I like him, I always have, I never wanted
to but I don't care anymore. I'm grown up enough to not be
that stupid, Just cuz I don't wanna like someone doesn't
mean I don't.

I miss being normal. Was I ever normal? I don't know.

What else was I gonna say?

People piss me off.




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