Misty911

smashed by a giant lawn knome
2004-08-22 02:57:09 (UTC)

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MistyOWee: hey
MistyOWee: i'm sorry i've been a bitch lately
MistyOWee: ((lately being the last 2-3 days))
MistyOWee: anyway you're not there
MistyOWee: so i'll talk to you later.
MistyOWee: 3
crwnyoung: oi
MistyOWee: hi
crwnyoung: whats up?
crwnyoung returned at 8:01:03 PM.
MistyOWee: watching secret window.. i downloaded it
crwnyoung: neat
MistyOWee: got it to work
MistyOWee: what are you up to
crwnyoung: just got home from hobby lobby
MistyOWee: neato
crwnyoung: had to buy one o' them sketchbooks
MistyOWee: lol, yeah
crwnyoung: i really need to get that stupid algebra stuff
done
crwnyoung: i hatesssss it
MistyOWee: is it algebra 2?
crwnyoung: accelerated algebra 2
MistyOWee: sucky
crwnyoung: yup
crwnyoung: it = t3h suck
MistyOWee: yup, cuz mat hsi t3h suck
crwnyoung: i really don't enjoy it
MistyOWee: neither do i
crwnyoung: i need something to sketch
MistyOWee: mega man mega man whoo!
crwnyoung: what should i draw?
crwnyoung: i don't think steiger will let me.
MistyOWee: is there a subject?
MistyOWee: god i wish i could help you, lol
crwnyoung: although i did push her "copyrighted things are
a nono
crwnyoung: rule a bit
MistyOWee: lol
crwnyoung: i drew a big super nintendo on my portfolio
MistyOWee: lolol
crwnyoung: its hardcore !
MistyOWee: lookie... im sorry about acting all stupid the
past few days
crwnyoung: i suppose its alright, although i really don't
understand why you were
MistyOWee: you suppose it's alright? are you mad at me?
crwnyoung: i was sorta tweeked, because i didn't do
anything to my knowledge
MistyOWee: =( im sorry
MistyOWee: are you still mad at me?

crwnyoung: not really
crwnyoung: i just want to know what i did
MistyOWee: it's nothing you did, i'm just having kinda a
hard time right now.. i know i shouldn't blame it on that
but alot of stuff is going on that im not used to
crwnyoung: like what?
MistyOWee: well, school starting, i can already tell which
classes im gonna not do so good in.. i got my schedule for
work next week and im closing 4 nights, and i said i
couldnt, they won't listen to me and i'm really pissed at
them, and then of course there is liking you alot more than
i should
MistyOWee: i knwo that part doesn't seem like a big deal,
but it's, well, not 'bothering' me, but it's just on my
mind all the time
MistyOWee: i'm really sorry. i just wanted to see you
crwnyoung: its cool
MistyOWee: =
crwnyoung: i wonder if you and i should sorta hold up a
while and let you get your feelings sorted out
MistyOWee: well my feelings are sorted out
MistyOWee: it's not like i don't know how i feel
MistyOWee: i just don't know why
MistyOWee: and i have a feeling thigns with school and work
aren't going to go away until they end, which towards the
end of school things are just going to get worse. growing
up sucks
crwnyoung: i don't see why :/
crwnyoung: i'm sorta excited
MistyOWee: cuz of graduation and college
MistyOWee: im not
crwnyoung: i can't wait for that stuff
MistyOWee: i was last year
MistyOWee: yeah well, your feelings might change
crwnyoung: i doubt it seriously
MistyOWee: yeah
MistyOWee: well
MistyOWee: everyone isn't the same
MistyOWee: and personally i'm starting to dread it. it's
not that i don't want gto go to college
MistyOWee: i can't wait
MistyOWee: i'm just doubting if i'll make it and everything
crwnyoung: oh
crwnyoung: i don't see why not, you're bound to get a
scholarship in art
MistyOWee: well, thanks
crwnyoung: hrum... did you get your car fixed and whatnot?
MistyOWee: look that doesn't really matter that much. i
just want you to know that i'm sorry. i was mad because i
got off work tonight cuz i thought we could do something,
and i understand that you have other friends and other
things to do, and i shouldnt get pissed over petty things
MistyOWee: so im sorry
crwnyoung: i forgive you
MistyOWee: no, the radiator is all messed up and it's gonna
be like 200 bucks to fix it.. and something is wrong with
the fuses in my turn signal
crwnyoung: those are easy enough to fix i think, the fuses
anywya
crwnyoung: way*
MistyOWee: yeah
crwnyoung: i've been having a pretty good week
crwnyoung: i wish you were too
MistyOWee: at least one of us has
MistyOWee: and at least it was you
crwnyoung: that didn't make a lick o' sinse
crwnyoung: sense*
MistyOWee: yeha it did
crwnyoung: why " at least it was you"
crwnyoung: why wouldn't you want a good week?
MistyOWee: i'd rather have you happy then me.. you need it
more
crwnyoung: no i don't
MistyOWee: meh
crwnyoung: no meh
MistyOWee: soemtimes i just look too hard into things, like
this for instance.. i just thought you hated me and didnt
like me anymore now.. theres no reason to think that but
for some reason i did
crwnyoung: yea, i don't know why
MistyOWee: =( im really sorry though
crwnyoung: don't be.
MistyOWee: see that's weird. i still feel like you don't
like me now
MistyOWee: i'm probally just making it worse so i'll shut up
crwnyoung: i'm still sorta bummed out
MistyOWee: my fault =(
crwnyoung: i suppose so
MistyOWee: yeah
MistyOWee: now i feel shitty cuz i made you mad
crwnyoung: i'm not mad at you though
MistyOWee: =
crwnyoung: i'm just sorta i dunno a little annoyed i guess.
i didn't do anything i know of and you got all pissy
towards me.
crwnyoung: and didn't explain what it is i did.
MistyOWee: i know you were mad at me that one night even
when you said you weren't
crwnyoung: what?
MistyOWee: i dont remember what night it was
crwnyoung: when we were talking like at 2 am
crwnyoung: like the 1st or second night of school?
MistyOWee: but i've been all worried and upset the past few
nights cuz on the phone it's just like "eh" and that's
about it
MistyOWee: i don't remember
crwnyoung: but christy its you have been saying "eh"
crwnyoung: i've been trying to talk to you and you barely
respond
MistyOWee: because i thought you were mad at me
crwnyoung: i was the one who kept asking if you were mad at
me.
MistyOWee: but i wasnt
MistyOWee: and im not
crwnyoung: it would have been nice if you'd told me.
crwnyoung: since you never really answered.
MistyOWee: i said no though
MistyOWee: =( sorry
MistyOWee: now i just feel worse
crwnyoung: i wasn't even annoyed because i figured you were
just having a bad day until this morning
MistyOWee: this morning?
crwnyoung: "I'm getting confused and wondering if this is
even worth it."
crwnyoung: yea, that was fun to read.
MistyOWee: well it just seems like things would be fine but
then i'd talk to you again and i'd get all worried you were
mad at me and didn't like me anymore.
MistyOWee: it's not true, i think it's worth it or else i
wouldn't be talking to you right now
MistyOWee: i wanted to appologise earlier but i didn't know
if you would even know what i was appologising for
crwnyoung: i wouldn't have
MistyOWee: and the last few days ive felt like i needed to
talk to you about something but i didnt really know what it
was
crwnyoung: do you know now?
MistyOWee: well, no, but i think this might be it
MistyOWee: it just seems like i havent talked to you in a
long time
MistyOWee: which sounds stupid
crwnyoung: *sigh*
MistyOWee: ?
MistyOWee: why sigh?
crwnyoung: i just don't know
crwnyoung: i can't help how busy i am.
crwnyoung: and i don't need you being mad at me.
MistyOWee: no, it's not your fault
MistyOWee: i' mnot mad at you
crwnyoung: well, i don't need you sad because you think i'm
mad at you
crwnyoung: i have a bullshit schedule for my life
MistyOWee: ?
crwnyoung: journalism will be taking all my time that isn't
spent making money
crwnyoung: then i have normal class homework.
MistyOWee: well if you won't have time for "me" then do u
still want "me" anyway?
crwnyoung: elaborate...
MistyOWee: not to sound like i don't want to be with you,
because i do, alot, but it's pointless to be together if
there's absolutely not time spent together
MistyOWee: no*
MistyOWee: *no time to spend together*
crwnyoung: ...maybe you're right
MistyOWee: ghar
MistyOWee: i shouldnt have said that
MistyOWee: that's not what i want
MistyOWee: but if you do
MistyOWee: then okay
crwnyoung: not really what i "want"
MistyOWee: this really fucking sucks
MistyOWee: no offence, and it's not your fault
MistyOWee: i just like you alot
MistyOWee: and
MistyOWee: yeah
crwnyoung: no kidding.
crwnyoung: yea, i like you a lot too...
crwnyoung: and yea
MistyOWee: =
MistyOWee: this isn't really the way i want this to end
crwnyoung: i don't really want it to end.
MistyOWee: at all
MistyOWee: i don't either
crwnyoung: i don't know....
crwnyoung: this is pretty uncool.
MistyOWee: =( sorry
MistyOWee: i'm sure it's my fault
crwnyoung: no... its just lifes fault
crwnyoung: but us "splitting up" is pretty uncool
MistyOWee: well i think it would be stupid to break up
MistyOWee: yeah
MistyOWee: i'm glad you feel that way
crwnyoung: but if we can't spend anytime together (or very
little) whats the point?
MistyOWee: =(
MistyOWee: owies
MistyOWee: i was all relieved and then bam
MistyOWee: this whole evening all i've been doing is
sitting here thinking about how i wish i could hug you and
just cry because that's how shitty i feel and you're the
only thing that can make me feel any better
crwnyoung: sorry connection died
MistyOWee: k
MistyOWee: MistyOWee: =(
MistyOWee: owies
MistyOWee: i was all relieved and then bam
MistyOWee: MistyOWee: this whole evening all i've been
doing is sitting here thinking about how i wish i could hug
you and just cry because that's how shitty i feel and
you're the only thing that can make me feel any better
crwnyoung: ;_;
crwnyoung: who says you can't?
MistyOWee: =
MistyOWee: but splitting up isn't going to make anything
better
crwnyoung: maybe it will, don't ask me how
MistyOWee: it might hurt being together and not spending
much time together but being "apart" and not spending a...
crwnyoung: but i doubt it
MistyOWee: well if you wanna break up then fine, because
one person can't keep something together
MistyOWee: yeah
MistyOWee: i doubt it too
crwnyoung: we could still spend time together
MistyOWee: i like you too much
MistyOWee: yeah but it will just make me depressed
crwnyoung: why?
MistyOWee: because, i don't think you understand how much i
like you
crwnyoung: i guess i don't
MistyOWee: =( guess not..
crwnyoung: i really love hanging out with you and spending
time with you
MistyOWee: yeah.... what's the "but..."
crwnyoung: but?
MistyOWee: i thought you were gonna be like "but... "
crwnyoung: oh
crwnyoung: i just don't see why we can't hang out and be
together and stuff if we aren't together
MistyOWee: ..would it make a difference to you?
crwnyoung: it'd be the same thing wouldn't it?
MistyOWee: we can hang out if we aren't together, if you
don't want to be together then say so
crwnyoung: but i do want to be together
crwnyoung: but i also don't...
MistyOWee: =(
MistyOWee: well, then i guess we're not anymore. cuz if you
don't want to then ..we cant
MistyOWee: cuz i can't force you to do something you don't
want to do
crwnyoung: but... i still like you so much...
MistyOWee: then i don't understand
crwnyoung: i don't either
MistyOWee: but you're the one saying things i don't
understand
crwnyoung: just because i say things doesn't mean i
understand why
MistyOWee: and i'm pretty sure you understand what you're
saying
MistyOWee: ah, or not
MistyOWee: well try to explain?
MistyOWee: i really want to avoid this because this already
sucks enough and i feel like i'm going to throw up now
crwnyoung: i dunno, i want to be with you but i feel like i
shouldn't for some reason
MistyOWee: .. is it something i did?
crwnyoung: it has nothing to do with you
MistyOWee: =
crwnyoung: its not that i shouldn't be with you
MistyOWee: apparently it is if youfeel that you shouldn't
crwnyoung: *sigh* i just don't understand what i mean
MistyOWee: it's okay
MistyOWee: don't get upset over it
MistyOWee: or cornfuzzled
crwnyoung: it isn't o.k. because i like you
crwnyoung: and i hope you still like me
MistyOWee: omg lucky
MistyOWee: i like you so much more than comprehendable
MistyOWee: thats probally why i feel so heartbroken right
now
crwnyoung: :-(
MistyOWee: i know i shouldn't because you still like me but
it's just the thought of not being together really makes me
sad and worried that we'll jsut drift apart and you'll like
someone else
crwnyoung: what if that did happen
MistyOWee: that's what i'm worried about
crwnyoung: i mean, you could always find someone too, i
feel the same way
MistyOWee: =
crwnyoung: but thats no good reason to stay together
crwnyoung: for the sheer fact that we don't want the other
person to like anyone else
MistyOWee: so i like you and you like me, that's not a good
enough reason?
MistyOWee: that's not the only reason i want to be with you
crwnyoung: i just get the feeling that this won't work.
MistyOWee: it's far from the only reason
crwnyoung: no matter how much we want it too
MistyOWee: *sigh*
MistyOWee: k
crwnyoung: we both want it to, god knows i do
crwnyoung: but don't you feel like we'd be straining
ourselves trying to stay together
MistyOWee: i don't know but i'll tell you one thing that i
feel awfully strained now that we're not
crwnyoung: ;_;
MistyOWee: yeah, ;_; it is
crwnyoung: this really does suck
MistyOWee: for me anyway
crwnyoung: why wouldn't it suck for me?
MistyOWee: no, im ssaying ;_; for me
crwnyoung: you think i just don't care...?
MistyOWee: no
MistyOWee: that's not what i said it to
MistyOWee: MistyOWee: yeah, ;_; it is
crwnyoung: this really does suck
MistyOWee: for me anyway
crwnyoung: oh.
MistyOWee: = yeah, ;_; it is for me anyway
MistyOWee: i didn't mean you weren't upset
crwnyoung: i sorta am too
MistyOWee: i meant that i'm probalyl the onyl one crying
crwnyoung: no you aren't
crwnyoung: i'm just so frustrated with how i feel
MistyOWee: why??
crwnyoung: i dunno
crwnyoung: this is terrible
crwnyoung: but i'm just gonna shut up now
MistyOWee: don't
MistyOWee: why
MistyOWee: if you shut up, what are you gonna be doing
instead of talking about it?
MistyOWee: cuz i'll just be thinking about it
crwnyoung: i'll probably go work on something and try to
forget about it truthfully
crwnyoung: just because i feel awful
MistyOWee: and to me, talking about it with you is better
than thinking about it alone
MistyOWee: oh i would too but it's not like it would work
for me
MistyOWee: i guess i should let you get some work done
though.
crwnyoung: life just got a lot worse
MistyOWee: i'll jsut go for a drive or something
MistyOWee: why? how?
crwnyoung: because uh, we just broke up and thats ghey!
MistyOWee: yeah
MistyOWee: well
MistyOWee: it's what you feel like you should do so *shrug*
there isn't much i can do
MistyOWee: i'd try harder to keep it together but it's a
lost cause since you've made your mind up
MistyOWee: and like i said i can't make you do or feel any
certain way
MistyOWee: do antything or *
MistyOWee: well, jusrt message me if you have anything to
say. i'll be here
crwnyoung: alright
MistyOWee: ..are you okay?
crwnyoung is idle at 9:44:31 PM.




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