little goth gurl

without wings, i fall
2004-08-14 23:23:15 (UTC)

some things are better left unsaid

blah. fuck last night was shitty ass. i fucked it up again,
wow shock shock. well its really not fucked up more or less
just i'm angry at myself. i mean god, i can't even do a
simple thing like not fuck brian. its that easy i can just
not do it, there's just something about him that drives me
insane. so yeah, rob came to stay with billy and i and our
kids. hopefully for good, he brought pretty much all of his
stuff, he did it when dad and mom we're sleeping. i wish i
could feel bad for him not telling mom, but i know she
would tell dad and he would come to me and beat the shit
out of me until rob agreed to come back. so yeah, some
things are better left unsaid. so yeah i fucked billy,
previous to fucking brian and then brian decided to be a
retard and long story short we had a conversation about me
and my faking orgasms. it was a long night. but yeah. i'm
still okay. i cut myself a few times once everyone was
sleeping but i'm alive still. i need to get a new razor
blade though. mine is too rusted from the blood that i
leave on it. but yeah. meh. whatever. i'm going to go try
to be an okay attempt at a good girlfriend. pffftthh i
fail. anyways

xoxo
linzi




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