rae_katherine

Dear Jesus...
2004-08-07 02:36:47 (UTC)

home again

wow...i feel so...empty...i don't know why...it's like
coming home and sitting down at this computer just sucked
the life right out of me...weird...this past week is over
so that all i'm going to say...it was another week at camp
i guess...it feels so weird to be home...i have these weird
feelings of culture shock, as if none of this is real...i
don't know what's going on...i feel so...lost...i had a
dream that my bro dave died and so did faith...it made me
cry so hard in the dream...i came home and just found you
not breathing...james was in the dream too...in the
background, like he was just there with me...i wanted to
turn to him in the dream for comfort, but i knew i
couldn't...he didn't want that...i woke up from there and
it was a weird way to start the day...im reading the book
God Chasers...it crazy...i can feel the prayars of the
authour as i read the book...the Spirit has been convicting
me about it so much...i wonder how much time i have
sometimes, how long i will live here...i've committed to
searching out the presence of God and i think it's going to
kill me...still i press on...if my death would serve Him
better, so be it...for the glory of God alone...amen




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