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2004-08-04 05:58:21 (UTC)

Its raining this summer

It hasn't been long since my last entry which is something
new to me but I'll write an entry now anyway. I can't sleep
tonight, and if any one reading this knows me then they know
thats not right. I RARELY have the problem of insomnia, but
I'm flustered. This friend of mine who I speak to often
brought up the subject of dating and how we couldn't. I have
to admit I had thought about it alot, but it floored me to
actually have to discuss it. I figured it was just a silly
thought anyway. To my dismay I was correct. He would hint
towards dating then blatently say we could not and he had a
good reason, yet he wouldnt tell me. I, of course, was
confused. Ultimitely, I decided I would ignore it, which
worked just fine for several hours, until I realized what it
was he wanted to say was the problem. It was one of his
online journal entries. Let's just say I was no longer
qualified to date him. This was sort of astounding and
angering. So, I titled todays entry its raining this summer
because im very sad and angry, mostly at myself. I hate
everything tonight. Actually I hate me, but thats hardly
something new. I'm so outrightly angry I don't know what to
do with myself. I'll probably just go to my cousin's house
tommorow night and vent with her. That will make things less
intolorable at any rate.
I'll simply hide there until I feel better about myself then
I can go home and act peachy again as if I wasn't flustered.
All will Be well then. Well, maybe the readers can sleep
well tonight for me.
-Beth
p.s. Sorry the entry is so short, but I dont give a damn
enough to write more.




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