ravenknight21

Reflections of the Raven
2004-07-29 22:29:08 (UTC)

it's been a long time...

sorry i havent updated much...i know that for the two or three of you
that read this, it's been an unbearable wait.

note the sarcasm?

not that people aren't reading this...just that reading it isn't exactly the
highlight of anyone's day.

if it is, let me know and i'll try to update more often.

anyway...it's been a long month. job hunting has sucked, and continues
to suck. in large part because i feel like i'm up in the air because my
cooperating teacher still hasn't sent in the professional reference form
yet...and it's starting to piss me off.

i've been catching up on my reading, which is nice. i've been reading a
lot of Heinlen (i think that's how you spell it...i don't have a book handy),
and a couple weeks ago i bought 6 books for $9, which is pretty good...

i'm still lonely as hell.

people keep telling me to get out and go find someone, but it isn't that
easy. last night i was at a gaming store in the mall, it's kind of become
my hangout spot, and i've been going there since about the second week
of april. one of the guys there, who i'd known since i started going
there, asked me how old i was and was shocked when i told him i was
24...he said i looked 34. how am i supposed to find a girl even close to
my own age, when i look ten years older than i am?

anyone that says "looks don't matter" is lying to themself. looks do
matter. how many ugly movie stars are there? i mean really ugly. how
many guys are there out there who are funny and smart and easy to talk
to and all those other things girls say they want, but are a little bit
overweight, and are forever relegated to "just be friends?" the notion
that looks are not important is a fairy tale, and i'm sick of all of my "just
friends" saying that to me. no offense to anyone...i'm just feeling...i
dunno. not myself.

i better shut up before i piss someone off..


peter




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