theallconsumingvagina

the paint begins to splatter the wall
2004-07-28 23:46:34 (UTC)

proudly unformatted- the choppy aspect actually makes it more fun to read.

apple computers are so stylish- needlessly so. They don't
process
floppies and that pisses me off because, well, most of what
i write- i
write on a floppy first and then copy and paste it to
something.
sorry i've been so private about what i've been writing.
since i'm
on a mac right now and that seems to be the majority of the
comp
supply in this lab i can't copy and paste stuff from my
floppy. the
reason i don't share is because i have a hard time letting
it go- i
have a hard time letting things be "right". because
everytime i
open a file- i instantly want to fix it until it conveys
EXACTLY what i
was trying to say- so it's not misunderstood. and i'm also
afraid of
reactions. i'm deathly afraid of reactions. it's not an
elitist thing- it's
more a thing of low self-esteem because i don't think it'll
ever be
good enough to actually submit. i'm sorry. i have to
patch myself
up. it seems my grammar is always imperfect and my
vocabulary
limited, my sentence structure awkward- explanations come
after
conclusions and everything is uncomfortably written. i
read it over
and over trying to smooth the curves and sand the ridges
but it's as
if I'm trying to put a right shoe on my left foot- or
wearing pants
backwards. it just doesn't work.

i don't feel particularly poetic right now.

"In line with this, Sabino pelted herlisteners with
statistics: One
hundred percent of tweens watching TV, 87 percent listen to
the
radio, 85 percent play video games. The median age for a
first
solo purchase is eight years old. the average ten-year-old
has
memorized form three hundred to four hundred brands.
Ninety-
two percent of kids request brand-specific products. There
had
been an 8 percent increase since 1998 in parents asking
kids
about brands before they buy them stuff like sneakers.
It's Adidas
or bust for the under-fourteens, accompanyting an increase
of 17
percent in brand awareness of sneakers among that age group
between 1998 and 2001."

this freaks me out.
what's happening to youth?




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