My piece of reality
this is me in 2004
*1 minute ago: I was reading my old entries
*1 hour ago: I was moving into my new house
*1 day ago: I was spending time with Bart
*1 week ago: I was in my routine of working, going to
Barts and coming home.
*1 month ago: I was worrying about whether I would pass my
classes or not
*1 year ago: I was graduating high school.
*1 lifetime ago: I was at home in ohio.
01. I hurt: when friends only call when their boyfriend
02. I love: my friends, Bart, my family, i'm working on
loving God again.
03. I hate: people who judge people based on what someone
else said, being used,
04. I cry: hardly ever anymore.
05. I fear: death, losing loved ones, spiders,
thunderstorms, tunnels, lol.
06. I hope: that Bart and i will last forever
07. I sadden: when i think about my friends in ohio. they
are the only true ones i have who have stuck by me through
08. I feel alone: sometimes. not as much as i used to, but
09. I kill: to be a better person.
10. I talk: a lot. i dont always make sense, i say stupid
stuff ((what happens at weigh stations??)) but oh well.
love me for me.
11. I listen: when someone needs me. even if thats the
only time i hear from them.
12. I break: when i'm in church and the sermon makes me
realize just how far from Christ i really am.
13. I see: that i dont know half as much as i think i do.
14. I smell: laundry
15. I taste: cheez-its.
16. I work: at being a better person
17. I remember: my past. its been an interesting one.
19. I hide: too much. 3 people in the world know the real
me. i'm scared to let her out.
20. I pray: not nearly as much as i should.
21. I walk: not enough. i need to start exercizing.
22. I drive: a blue camry. my 4th car. and i drive a lot
of ppl crazy.
23. I read: magazines mostly.
24. I burn: to be able to show bart just how much he means
25. I breathe: air?
26. I play: games whenever i can. card games, car games,
whatever. i love to have fun.
27. I miss: Ohio. still........almost 4 years later.
28. I touch: hopefully someday i will touch someones life.
30. I feel: love. for the first time in my life.
31. I know: that no matter what comes along, i'm gonna be
33. I dream: of my future and wonder where it will lead.
35. I want: to be a good friend, and a good person
36. I fall: in life, in my faith, i fall short of where i
wanted to be.
37. I wait: for tomorrow
38. I need: to be more accepting of myself.