Beauty Within

Fuck Me Pretty
2004-07-25 18:48:26 (UTC)

I Hate Myself.

I hate myself for getting so involved and hurting you like
this. I hate myself for not making these tears stop. But
they won't!

You didn't wanna say anything before when I wasn't so
attatched but now I hear that everyone has the same opinion
and I can't make up my own mind cuz my choices are wrong and
my eyes hurt from crying and my nose is running off my
fucking face and I Love You all, and I'm not mad at you.

I'm just very very hurt.

But I'm telling you right now I'm not gonna stop talking to
Ramon. You can be mad at me I will still love you. I'm gonna
talk to him about some things tonight, i know this could be
wrong. I know it could. But it's not like we have any plans
to meet in person do we? no.


This would be so much easier if he hated me like I did. Than
you guys could be happy and wouldn't have to worry about me
making mistakes. I could just sit, alone, and not ruin
anyone else's life.




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