ErykahKayne

My Daily Bread
2004-07-25 10:38:56 (UTC)

Fight Club

whas up diary? the time is a little after 12pm and i just
got off the phone with Reggie. but wait a minute..let me
bacc up and tell u what the fucc happened last night. me
and him got into a fight. and i don't mean no yellin and
screamin match. i mean...i had my hands around his throat
and we was tryin to go head the fucc up. over some
bullshit. it ended with him in cuffs and being sent to the
psychiatrist. all of this between 12 and 4 this morning.
first he's like "who u know in Giebelstadt?" so i say
"NOBODY" and leave it alone. then this nigga come out the
blue with, "who u fuccin over there?" so i get mad and
say "don't ask me shit, i ain't answering nomore
MOTHAFUCCIN questions?" and he just keep talking. and i
just keep sitting there mute like a mu'fucca. so then i'm
like fucc this. and i go outside..smoke me a cigarette and
think and shit. i come bacc upstairs and this nigga in the
hallway freestyling and shit..and i walk pass his ass and
go into another hallway to look out the window. all the
while listening to this nigga rap about how he tired
of "these hoes" and all kinda shit. so then i hear him
talking to some females about the shit that just happened
with us right? so i'm like hol' up, if this nigga all bold
and wanna talk shit, he need to bring it to me. that's one
thing i don't like. people knowing my business. so i knocc
on the door..and i tell his ass to come here. the whole
time we walkin bacc to his room he talkin big shit. about
how niggas is telling him that i'm fuccin somebody else and
blah blah..which i know is a lie cuzz i know what the fucc
i been doin right? so we arguing and i'm talkin bout how
stupid he is to believe what he hears and why the fucc he
talkin to me like he done lost his mind...then he was
like "just get the fucc out." hahahahahaha..riiiight. so i
look him dead in the eyes and i'm like "yeah right, i ain't
goin no mothafuccin where." and he just keep tellin me to
get out. i keep tellin his ass i ain't going. then people
are standing in the hallway by this time. listening to us
yell and cuss each other out and shit like that. eventually
he makes it to the hallway i don't remember how..but i make
it out there with his ass..he got too close and i pushed
him against the wall. he pushed my ass right the fucc bacc
and then i swung on him a couple times..at least 1 hit his
blacc ass..he swung on me..i got scratched on my chin and
it was bleeding like i was shot. he tried to choke me,
until he figured out that i was chokin his ass right the
fucc bacc..so he chilled out. it was a wrap..even after all
that i went right the fucc bacc in his room and planned on
staying there. so eventually we end up talking in the
bathroom while i'm wiping the scratch on my chin. next
thing i know somebody's knoccin on the door. it's his 1st
Sgt. and then ol boy start talking big shit to him too.
about why the fucc is he in his room when ain't nobody call
him, we doing alright,what he want? he wearing green if he
feel froggy jump. all kinda shit right? so then 1st Sgt he
asks me if i'm alright. i say "yeah i'm good. no we wasn't
fighting"..the normal shit. then the MP's come...and he
left in handcuffs from there. soon as he left i went bacc
to his room and wrote him a letter. left it on his bed and
told him i'll be talking to him later. then i wetn to get
me a ride. they wouldn't let me stay there cuzz they said
he might hurt me LOL...right. but anyway so while i was
waiting and he was at the station i talked to him on the
phone. he said he was sorry and he wanted me to be there
when he got home. apology accepted but i couldn't stay. and
all this turmoil was caused because he believed something a
bitch told his ass. i couldn't believe it. i don't know
what to say now. i still love him and i still wanna be with
him but i told him i don't know if that's possible. i mean,
i was so embarrassed last night. not because we were
fighting..but the shit he was saying was so off the wall.
my pride, feelings...everything. i don't know. that's my
baby and as soon as he left in the cuffs all i wanted to
do was talk to him and see if he was alright. after i did i
felt better. i didn't sleep when i got home because i was
calling him every 45 minutes to see if he was home safe.
when i did i went right to sleep. i love him so much..and i
know he loves me. i know that for a fact. but i can't be
with somebody that believes somebody else before me. to
even come at me with that..what the fucc? and if he
would've really thought about it..he would've seen that's
it's next to impossible. when i'm with him almost everyday
and if i'm not, i'm on the phone with his ass..or on my way
to see him. but anyway, he told me he wasn't letting me go
that easy. when i tried to tell him that he let me go last
night. i don't know. we'll probably end up bacc together
LOL..but for now i have to think and analyze our
relationship. on that note..i'm out. this shit got to be
pretty long. i'll hollaaaaaaaa




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