Beauty Within

Fuck Me Pretty
2004-07-23 06:49:06 (UTC)

Unfaithfulness

Note to Self. Never take Caffiene Pills ever again, not
even just one, they make you feel like SHIT! omg my eyes
burn, my head hurts, I feel like im gonna fuckin throw up
but holy shit I had fun.

HOWEVER, I feel like I was being completly unfaithful to
Ramon which is RIDICULOUS! Seeing as we ARE NOT dating or
anything. There is no comitment there or anything so why
do I feel so bad? Unfaithful with who? Well Scott. Who
else?

Who was there? Me, Scott, Keith, Becca, Melanie, Jared,
Tayler, Lisa, Steven, and Ali. Im pretty sure that was
everyone.

Me, Scott, Ali, Keith, and Jared were a team. and Melanie,
Becca, Tayler, Lisa, and Steven were a team. It was
awesome fun.

But why do I feel unfaithful? its stupid. its not like
anything huge even happened. I mean what happened? he did
the whole leg thing again and even more so after he
figured out it was a feeling other than tickling, we held
hands, he sat behind me in the same chair and had his
hands on my boobs for at least five minutes and named one
Susie and the other Gretchen. don't ask, i don't know, hes
a boy. lol uuum i don't rememeber anything else
happening... uuuh. yah i don't remember but yah I mean I
had hella fun and everything but I just felt horrible
afterwards. Maybe the Caffiene just got to me and messed
with my head. I learned something new about him, he takes
Anti-Depressents. He just didn't seem like the kind of guy
who would be depressed it was just a neat thing to learn.
Maybe he is good at pretending too. idk

But like I said, regardless of whether or not you think I
should like Scott, ANY feelings I have for him are nothing
compared to Ramon. So don't worry, my problem.

Anyway I feel like Shit, so does everyone else. Ali,
Becca, Melanie, and Keith are downstairs watching a movie.
I'm talking to Ramon, it's almost midnight and I got no
sleep last night. Im like... dead.




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