blkdragon

grounded
2004-07-18 20:49:26 (UTC)

Digressions

PC froze, lost this mornings entry, sucks! Got a call from
Charles, Shun and Shawn last night, Shawn told me to use
the house phone to call Shun; if I wanted to. I told Shawn
that I said I'd call Shun when I got home, I may call her
before I leave here though.

I normally spread all the rumors that float about me.
Kenny has started a rumor alleging that I refused pressman
training, how that could be possible when I initiated the
training in question is unimaginable, just goes to show
how much people want to chew on gossip.
When I first got hired by the owner, Kenny came on the
scene, I wouldn't have bothered if it hadn't been for
Kevin Smalley. Kevin was the pressman on the Harris, when
GBS merged with Eagle, he asked me to approach the owner;
because he wanted me to work with him, I make those around
me look real good. I work harder than most, am innovative
and my standards are above reproach.
Kevin subsequently got terminated, Kenny and I became the
team, Darryl was hired shortly thereafter. Kenny became
the lead pressman and Darryl and I were 2nd pressman
apprentices, Darryl thought highly of his new title, I
hung the rolls and Darryl stacked the loads.
I trained Darryl to do his job and mine, I assisted Darryl
on the stacker when I got ahead of my own work. I
approached the owner when we got more work than we could
handle without a break, plus the fact that Kenny was
always complaining and throwing tantrums, he complained
that he couldn't get a vacation. I approached John with
the training idea and he hired Paul Dion to train Darryl
and myself, we were each to get a week on the press, after
one week and payroll problems for Paul; there were to be
no subsequent training. Paul left the company and I got
shafted for my training, adverse situations made it
impossible for me to advance. Darryl ended on the second
shift with a pressman we called Doobie and that left me on
days with Kenny, not a bad deal at the time, I was getting
bonuses and raises for my outstanding efforts. Kenny and I
were the only ones getting pay hikes within the company
for the next three years.
For being such a handy man, Kenny isn't very quick on the
uptake, he has a tendency to shirk his standards and he's
been known to take a bit of information and elaborate on
it.
Presently, I'm on the Harris with Ralph and he's no better
than Kenny, in fact; he's worse. He's nowhere near the
pressman Kenny is, has a low tolerance for the inevitable
machine failures and lacks the troubleshooting skills
necessary to be the best pressman he can be.
Last week, Jack saw Jim Daly and I near the dumpster, we
were dumping a barrel that Jim couldn't handle alone; I
decided to light a cigarette on the way back inside. Jim
began to question me about the company, he's new on the
block, Jack saw us and told me that what we were doing
wasn't the best idea we could have, he didn't speak to Jim
in any way; just addressed me. Later that day, Ralph was
having problems with the press and thought he could talk
to me as though I had a tail (Shun, thanks for the
visual), I was about to turn the press off and smoke his
ass. He came to me later and apologized, said he wasn't
angry with me, he was angry with himself; then he
should've kept it to himself.
Kenny asked me if I'd work yesterday, I told him yes, he
thanked me for coming in and told me that he knew I'd work
if he asked me to; as though I wouldn't have worked if
Jack asked. I worked yesterday, strictly for the money and
Kenny never factored in my decision, but if he wants to
delude himself...so be it!
I left the job and headed home, packed a change of
clothes, made a thermos of coffee and began heading out
the door. My neighbors sent a boy to my door to ask if
they could use my hose, they'd set up a kiddie pool on the
sidewalk and the kids were using a hose when I arrived
home. I told the kid that using my hose was out of the
question, if they fukked up the one they were already
using, why would I give them a chance to fukk mine up?
I packed my car and drove away. I arrived in Kingston,
began my diary entries and watched some movies. I watched
BladeII, Fear dot com, Girls gone Wild (Doggy style-
garbage) Janine and Vince (masturbation video), Set it off
and Black and White.
I needed relief, masturbation removes the physical
tension, music and motion relieves everything else.
Shun's call eased me somewhat, her spirit reaches me on
the airwaves. She's made part of her diary private, don't
really know what that's about, but it's her diary. I
started to think about making mine private, but it's been
public since it's inception and I don't allow anyone that
doesn't accept me as I am to view it. The friends I have
here know that I have one online and they haven't asked to
view it.
I haven't spoken to Lenny or Louisa in the last two weeks,
been going through some shit. I'd been trippin over my
finances, got the mess straightened out and it looks as
though everything will be ok. Kenny told me he'd talk to
the owner about re-instating some of my missing wages, I
won't stop him and it won't change my mind about gettin
the fuk out of Dodge.
The movie, Black and White is a must see for all people,
it'll help in understanding the influence hip hop has on
all people and how it will undermine the racist forces at
work in our lives, it stars Wu-Tang and a host of others
that'll surprise you.
I need to get the dishes done and shower, Joshua is taking
Keisha to a Patty LaBelle concert in town, even though
I've been having second thoughts about him using my car;
I'll give it to him.
Found out that Charles has insinuated himself in someone
else's house, a kid he knew from Little League, how stupid
are these people to keep falling for his shit or how good
an actor is my son. The truth cannot remain hidden for
long.
Kathy called Joshua, earlier in the week, to see where
Charles was; she hadn't seen him in four days. She
practically accused Joshua and Shawn of kidnapping Charles
to keep him out of the Navy, we all think it may be the
best of ideas, I just want Shawn to handle the enlistment
so Charles gets the most out of the deal. I told Joshua
not to answer the phone when his Mother calls him, screen
her calls with voicemail.
I wanted to work on my resume here, have to bring it back
home and I need to get black ink for the printer. Got to
get in motion, so with no further ado, ciao! I think I'll
begin to write longhand and post my diary entries when I
can, at least until the beginning of next month!
Love you all




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