eidolon

shifting mists
2004-07-17 07:23:02 (UTC)

i don't know...

Where are you?

i see you
you're there
we talk
sometimes laugh
sometimes flirt

occasionally comfort
occasionally

but you aren't there

not really

NO
you're not

i don't know where you are but it is not there
not here with me
were you ever?

where are you?
you were there
and now you're gone
and to be honest i just simply don't understand

i don't

i'm not sure i want to
i'm not sure i want to understand
i'm not sure i want to even recognize your absence

who would have ever thought i could feel MorE alone?
i had experienced it before
i had forgotten the feeling
it is like rust eating away at iron
it is like cancer eating away at my insides

and i'm falling apart

alone


i’m so very tired
may i die now?