Hollie bee

KiKi lAnd
2004-07-16 04:52:25 (UTC)

KiKi

well, i DID have a lot of suff to write about but i forgot
half of it because the site was down.
i went to walden books after..work
and i read some random books about.. dreams, astrology,
meanings of names and like.. philosophy stuff.
i was bored. i went to papa ginos to say hi to dubes and
then tshirt city and said hi to this guy justin thats
like.. 27 . whatever, hes a cool dude.
i went to claires and considered stealing earrings becasue
im pissed off that i lost o-rings.
i went and spent 7 dollars at teh stop and shop gas station
and the chick working there. she looks like her name is
melissa but i forget her name. she told me i could have
used it for drinking money.
i really hope she doesnt seriously think im over 21.
some other chick told bill that i think his boyfriend is
mad hott. and now i wanna put a bag over my head when i see
bill. FUCK bill OKAY. HIS god damn boyfriend is hotter than
Any of MY boyfriends. how the Fuck did he do that. How?
thats all i want to know...
if all of the hot guys wanna be gay. FINE
have it your way.
but when a hot guy Ever hits on me. ill just be like.
Pfft im a dyke.. and see how they like it.
no fair.
----ah whatever------

im lonely...........................

its necessary for me to have a lot of alone time.
its just in my nature to be antisocial.
usually thats in the winter and throughout the schoolyear.
i dont know what it is. i need a lot of space.
but lately ive just been....really alone.
alright, i hang out with mAndi everyday.
im always with people.
but i dont talk really.
i never talk about shit with anybody anymore.
the people i try to talk to will listen to me of course.
but i get the impression that they think im just looking
for sympathy.
im not. nobody i talk to is in the same boat as me.
so ive stopped trying.
they probably dont wanna hear it anyway. so fuck it.

~~~~
I saw its birth, I watched it grow
I felt it change me
I took the life, I ate it slow
Now it consumes me

I... break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away
A.F.I. - The Leaving Song Part 2
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let your wAves crAsh down on me and take me away.
YellowcArd
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well whatever. as long as i still mean nothing

i was watching tv tonight and on animal planet they had a
half albino female/male lobster

alright 1Am i gotta go try to sleep now.
that was nuts.




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