angelkisses

help me
2004-07-11 06:57:54 (UTC)

used

I don't know what to do, we've already had sex
before, but that was before, I wanted to then. I didn't
want to today. I just couldn't say no, I was so afraid he
would break up with me, because he's "through with me".
While we were laying in his bed, with him deep inside me,
all I could think about was how could I let him do this to
me after everything he had said to me. After everything
that he had done. I have never felt so used in my life. I
felt that it was my job to, or I owed it to him. He
promised it would never happen again, but I don't believe
him.
I feel/felt so hopeless. I'd push his hand off my
inner theigh, only to feel it right there again in about a
minute. I said no at least 10 times. Why wouldn't he just
stop? What was he thinking? Was he intentionaly trying to
trick me into making love to him?
Help me. I don't know what to do. I just layed there
staring at the ceiling as he moaned and took advantage.
What is the real reason he asked me back out? Was it
because he assumed we would have sex? Did he just want to
pleasure his stick? How could I be so dumb? Why am I so
foolish?




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