Mezzo Swede

A Toast to World Domination
2004-06-27 19:09:09 (UTC)

I Have a Dream!

Last night I had another dream....that Sweden did NOT lose
to Holland in yesterday's soccer game, and that Zlatan
Ibrahimovich did NOT miss the penalty kick, hence all was
right with the world. I woke up in a state of elation. And
then reality kicked in, and I was back in the nightmare.

So my childhood friend, Anna, is having a baby. We are
talking my oldest, dearest friend in the whole wide world.
Granted we haven't been in very close contact, but I have
visited with her and her parents every year, except last
year. And now she is pregnant. Wow. I can't believe it. I
don't know what's going on with this world!

Soon everyone I know will be married with children. Anna
is even two years younger than I and, last time I checked,
expressed zero interest in having children. In fact, I
wasn't even sure she was interested in men at all. I guess
I just need to stop picturing her in pigtails, lugging
around a basket full of My Little Ponies. I should call
her. I don't have a clue as to what I should say...but I
should call her.

Sometimes I freak out when I see friends my age, and
younger, getting married, having kids, landing their
dreamjob...I have it in the back of my mind that I somehow
will have less time than everyone else, to get married,
have a family, be successful.

I worry that the disease will get to me, before I get to
any of those things. I wish I could go back to the time
when there was nothing wrong with me. Because I know that
there will never be LESS wrong with me. It will either be
about the same, or more. And what if I do have kids, and
in spite of the chances of genetic transfer being small...

How about I just stop thinking about all this....and go
watch soccer instead?

That's the best idea I have had so far.




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