evilxXxtorture

welcome to my hell
2004-06-17 23:27:16 (UTC)

y can't i be happy?

i feel so ..lost sometimes..thinking to much for my own
good..i love josh with everything i've got to offer..i
think he loves me..all i do anymore is talk about
him..think about him..i miss him,i don't think i can go
much longer without seeing him...my world gets darker
until i see him .. then my world is bright,happy,and i
have nothing to worrie about.. but when i'm not with him..
i wonder if he thinks about me.. if he thinks about other
girls.. talks to other girls.. if he does i probably
wouldn't think much of it anyways.. i love him.. i want
him to be happy if thats what it takes..
i sit alone at this computer.. in the dark .. thinking
about y i'm not happy.. y my mind insists on thinking
negatively about the ones i love..

my world of hate.. i'm drowning in it..

falling deeper

dieing

...
*looks up thru the see of
hate at all that i love.. no one can help me now..


dead




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