Princess_Lauren2002

Used n Abused
2004-06-16 06:04:48 (UTC)

repeating

I haven't wrote in here for awhile. So its always seems to
be the same thing in my life upsetting me. Joseph!
Everything is repeating itself over and over. Stop talking
to Joseph? I could but then I have that one fear! The fear
of never finding someone. Another thing is everything I had
with him. That makes me sad,that every kiss and thing that
i said and felt was a waste? So i finally thought I had him
where I wanted him,but things are always what they seem. SO
now HES WANTTING TO HOOK UP WITH HIS EX GIRLFRIEND . That
would be the one he left for me....So I don't wanna let go
of him but I know I have to . Someday atleast.... I guess
I'll just be lonely? Not having someone I can say I truely
do love. This is why i've been holding on for so long. I
really do Love him. And it kills me ,Because if he really
truely did love me he would want only me . But thats where
i've been a fool,he don't love me. Hes gone through so much
trouble to talk to me. Having his mother and father all
into it.But now that I had Brittany call Tess(the ex) up
and talk to her. I feel like everything I hoped and prayed
for are going down the drain. And another thing that hurts
and me n the girl Tess was begining to be friends,and she
knew how crazy i am about him. But then again they go
farther back. There aint nothing I can do to make him
choose me. All I can do it wait.But someday that boy is
gonna finally see who really loved him all along and wasn't
playing him. But by then I hope it isn't to
late.............This is sad I almost start crying when im
typing all of this. I hate when someone has that kind of
power over me. I honestly dont think I wanna fall inlove
again. Too much main and all I gain is heartache. well im
gONna go brittany wants on byebye GOD BLESS LOVE YALL lOVe
always,
LauReN "RalPh"
UsEd N abUsEd

P.S THANK YOU TO WHOEVER WROTE THAT MESSAGE TO ME! GOD
BLESS IT HELPS


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