a girl in a world of loneliness

the one no one knows about
2004-06-15 04:40:17 (UTC)

summer life

so yeah ive been reading my past entries just now and im
practically in tears...the last one was about how i wont
see david again untill next school year...i did see him...i
saw him last friday at the movies...im back with rick and
we were with my family and we were leaving to get in the
car and there he was...just staring at me...god he looked
so good and i wanted to walk over there and say
something...but of course i didnt...im a coward when it
comes to stuff like that...i text messaged him the other
day and said i was very sorry for the way ive acted and he
hasnt written back or called...i deserve it...he was good
to me and i blew it by thinking i wouldnt ever see
him...god i want to call him so badly...but i cant because
im with rick and hed be pissed and i dont even think david
would even talk to me...god i cant believe what a mess im
in...i just want to go to him and kiss him and see what
happens...i cant though...god yes i can...but i wont...i
might call him to ask to meet me somewhere but thats
it...well talk, ill leave...and not even kiss him...i just
would like to talk to him and be able to go to him and kiss
him and tell him my feelings...god i hate life...i hate
everything in this whole world...i cant even be happy
during the summer...the only good thing is i might have a
job...thats it...zip...im leaving now... i can barely see
the keys...




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