dazedandconfused

dazedandconfused
2004-06-11 03:29:56 (UTC)

blah blah blah blah blah

Nothing really happened today. Got up, went ot work, came
home, showered, ate, ran some errands. thats about it.
I haven't heard anything back from that job i applied
for. I put in the ap on monday now its tuesday, so that
is a little discouraging. i really hope they call. this
job would be soooooo great and would make me feel so good
about myself that im doing something with my life. i know
i can do good things and make a difference. i realy need
this job. my family i just know thinks im a big looser.
my mom hardly ever talks to me anymore, my sister, when i
do talk to her and tell her good news, she always has to
get down on me saying negative things. my dad, well he
doesn't even talk to me even though we all live in the
same damn house. and whenever he does, its something
negative or making ufn of me somehow. when we have family
over, i never feel like i fit in. i alwasy feel like an
outcast. i try to tlak to them, but i feel like they
aren't listening and are just blowing me off as a stupid
kid. im almost 22, and everyone still see's me as a
stupid kid. this is another reason i need this job. i
need to become independent. i need to move out. that is
all i really think about lately.
so if anyone is out there reading this, please say a
little prayer for me to get this job. i promis if i get
it, i'll do great things with it.
thanks




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