Hakerz338

Grass is Greener on the Other Side
2004-06-08 09:52:03 (UTC)

Coming to an end

Well... i guess it's coming to an end. This school year. To
bad i won't be able to register for classes, for the next
tri, cuz i'm to poor, i'll just have to see. Blink 182 is
right around the corner so that's going to be like awesome.
I can't wait. I guess. I still feel like super bad about
the whole Sat. incident and i wanna tell my GF how sorry i
am. I've been kinda kicking myself about that. I still am.
Right now i'm pretty bored at work, so i spent i guess like
an hour or so reading journal entries of strangers. I read
one about some girl that lost her virignity and ended up
pregnant. I continued to read on to others, and there was
one about a person that was trying to find themselves, and
a group that would understand. There's so many things that
people have to deal with. Right now i'm dealing with my
parentals and the whole being a burden. I mean my dad's
been just yelling at me for a while about stuff around the
house. The car isn't fixed yet, nor is my college stuff
worked out and here i am guilt stricken cuz i feel so bad
about Saturday. I guess right now with everything i'm
looking forward to the three weeks of chill time. If things
work out then i'll be going back to DeVry. I don't know
yet. I can't wait till this week ends, i can't wait till
the 17th, cuz i really would like to take LSR to MORP. I
told her that like back in the day and it's something that
i'd like to do. Talking about LSR, i hope she's feeling
better, i know i'm feeling crappy cuz of the way i was on
saturday when i got to see her. I feel like a total heal.
Hopefully sometime this summer i can make lunch for her and
have her over and watch Ferris Bueler's DAy off. I read one
of her entries sunday night, it kinda surprised me and made
me feel worse. She's now a senior which is sweet! She's
going to be out in the real world in another year. Her
entry was about the future, about moving out, about her
having more freedom, and about seeing me when ever she
wants. That was cool. After i guess the 18th i'm going to
have to decide what exactly am i going to do with the rest
of my life. I mean where am i going. Am i stayin in Cols,
or leaving? I wanna do something right. I mean I'm not like
where my parents are financially, and maybe it would be
better if i leave. I don't know. There's a lot that i have
to think of. All i can say is i really want to be there for
my GF. The one girl that i love more than anything in the
world. I still feel bad, and i need to see her and just
make things better between us. She'll prolly be the one
thing that keeps me here or close enough. I hope this
feeling goes away soon, cuz i don't think i'll be able to
enjoy myself @ blink182 if i can't talk to her and tell her
how i feel, and how sorry i am. So till 2morrow
L8r Dayz
5:51AM




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