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Letters to Future Me.
2004-06-08 02:56:04 (UTC)

a new chapter

well again, its been awhile since i last wrote. still the same mac
computer but quite a different steve at the keyboard this time. just read
over my last entry, kinda reminded me of how angry and frustrated i was
in mexico. really randy too. all i could think about was sex when i hadnt
even had it yet.

alot of things changed after my 21st. you met the lolly girl in houston
who turned out to be some crazed looney(thank gawd u didnt sleep with
her) and u made it to aTm! congrats! it was an alright semester, met lots
of folks(not so much "friends" though) and grew quite a bit in the
scheme of life.

had a fling with kat(that was fun, im still thinkin about her). and then
came back home with a 2.0 gpr. good enough for a first semester.
movin home was nice, got to see greg and hang out for awhile. then u
got the news that jeff was killed in iraq. ur best friend, bud. im still not
able to mourn for him like i want to. damn my understanding of the
process of life.

he was a good pal to ya. always foolin around. called you fat more than
you cared for but was always there for ya. he was my brother. went to
the funeral and shed a tear for him and thanked him for serving this
great country we're in. granddad told u that it prob wouldnt hit u til u
drive home from cs one day and say "hey, i think ill give jeff a call and
see what he's been up to." then u'll remember he's in san antone, in the
grave.......pretty harsh.

talked to ma yesterday about getting older. she didnt help much, i was
looking for a more positive answer when i asked her if time ever slows
back down to like it was when you were a kid. "time just keeps going
faster from here" she says. ur buds are starting to die(but its the
circumstances we're in, this wouldnt normally happen).

havent been sleeping well for about a month since summer courses
started. doin quite well in them, im optimistic(not that the grades really
matter, its just the credit that transfers). pretty fun nonetheless. met
some kool folks in some of my classes, quite a few cuties ;)

told kris(chatted with her from hotornot.com) that im not lookin. read
the last post and kinda laughed, what i told myself then ive kinda stuck
to(not lookin for anything). miss sleepin with kat and having a warm
body there but i dont wanna deal with the extra headache of a gf.

anyways, that catches up a bit. keep up the good work man, and dont
forget about your past.

-steve

ps remember ma's suggestion about becoming a set designer after you
watched that harry potter azkaban movie yesterday. really awesome
architecture in it!




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