Thoughts arrive like butterflies
2004-06-06 13:41:29 (UTC)

I find it kinda funny....I find it kinda sad

that the dreams where I am dying are the best I've ever had.

:( Not feeling to happy today. I was up late last night and
thought that maybe...seeing as it was Sunday I'd get to
sleep in, but oh no. Next door had to have their bloody
music on at 9. Then I put some of my music on(even thought
I could still hear hers over it) and tried to go back to
sleep but them some IDIOT across the street decided
to start cutting his hedge. I knew I wouldn't be able to
get back to sleep so I decided to get up and just as I hedge music. Fucking

Only 8 exams left...can't wait for them to be over with.
While I was in bed last night I

was running the whole of the biology book through in my
head and surprisingly I could actually remember quite a
lot, but then I realised that there's no point gettingtoo
excited because if I find it easy, it's because I answer
the question wrong, or the wrong question. And anyway,
there'll be nothing of what I actually *know* on the paper,
only what I vaguelly remember and have no chance of

Well, that's my biology, and my politics-what a joke!! I
don't know anything, and if I know nothing 3 days before
the exam there's not much chance of me learning anything

I'm just so pissed off. I've been really negative aobut
this trip to Turkey then the other day I thought that I
could actually have some fun--not much, but some and then
about two hours ago I realised-no. There's no hance that I
will enjoy myself. Mum, sister, cousin, Auntie and grandma.
And I do love my grandma to bits but....I'm not going to
enjoy myself so what's the point in even thinking myself
into believing I will.