- Jessica -

- Stuck In A World Of Sin -
2004-06-06 04:08:00 (UTC)

My Self-Esteem Is At An All-Time Low

Hey-

I am cursed. With ugliness and stupidity. I wonder
now.. why do I even have friends? lol. I mean, I guess
it's because they want to feel good about themselves..
because I'm am the ugliest thing that has ever been in Ada.
I got my hair cut Friday, and I love it.. well, not
anymore. My mother highlighted my hair today. I wanted a
blonde/red color, but what did I end up with??.....
Orange. Bright Orange. It's more of a red/orange color and
it's ugly on me... absoutely ugly.
I look like a skunk crossed with Pippi Longstocking.
I might as well give up on myself, because now that I'm
even more uglier than I was before- Lance with never talk
to me. Nor will any other guy. Omg- I feel so alone.
I'm ugly. I'm cursed with these small boobs that my
sister makes fun of, and these ugly brown eyes, and this
ugly, repulsive, beefy body. Just thinking about all of
this makes me cry. A lot.
As I type this I'm gasping for air, and praying that
God would just take me now. Now I realize, who would want
to be with anyone as ugly as me? Not Lance... that's for
sure. My self-esteem is lower than it's ever been.... as a
matter of fact.. it's gone. There aren't words to describe
how alone, ugly, and stupid I am.
Things couldn't get any worse than they are right
now. I wish for once that I could be happy.
- Jess




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