Nicole

~Lost in Darkness~
2004-06-05 03:36:58 (UTC)

The One Who Got Away

Heh, well im loving my car. Theres no other way to describe
what i feel for it. Its freedom like no other. I still need
to get use to night driving. And figure out where
everything is, in the car.


*sigh* its funney, knowing that there a good handful of
guys out there that would gladlly be my boyfriend, yet not
wanting any of them except for the one who hates your guts
right now. Kyle came over today and admitted he like me.
Andrew is basically saying hed dump his curent for another
chance with me. Yet all i can do is think of Brian. Its
driving me insane! I want to get over him! I miss being
able to flirt without holding back. I want to be 'back in
the game'. I almost did, with Jettes brother, but it wasent
long enough. It was like a teaser. However being with Brian
taught me that I dont want just any guy. I may be a bitch
sometimes, but I deserve someone who does genuinelly care
for me, im not that bad of a person. He did manage to open
my eyes to that. *sigh* i really wish i could reconsile
with him. He was a good friend to me above all else.




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