Rush

I'll hold my breath
2004-06-04 23:18:30 (UTC)

La Dee Fuckin' Da

I came home and realized that it's Friday. Then I kept
running that over and over in my mind and I still think
it's monday or tuesday. Not to mention the fact that
school's almost over hasn't really hit me either. Oh well.
I tried talking to Lauren today... oh that went well.
Almost as well as it did with Meryl. Heh. Atleast I tried,
right? But I just don't get what the fuck Lauren was
talking about me not giving a flying fuck about her. I
mean, hell, I invited her to a movie. Just her and me. I
figured we could work a few things out. Guess not. But
still, yea, I did had invited Meryl to a movie the week
before, but I also invited Caitlin to a movie that same
week. Not to mention Katie and I were suppose to go to a
movie with Nicole. So what I had invited Meryl earlier.
It's not like I was going to invite Meryl with us. I don't
get it. I know I stopped telling her certain things... but
I figured it was for the best. Especially since she didn't
handle the other things too well. As for Meryl, well... I
think it's best if I just give up. Let it go, ya know?
(heh, I rhymed) Though I must say it was a slap in the face
when Lauren just sauntered on over and handed me my
necklace. I was pretty hurt, not to mention pissed off. I
was about to rip off the necklace Meryl gave me and either
leave them in Meryl's locker OR throw them across the room
(that or toss 'em in the nearest trash can).
I still don't know if I'm going to transfer schools, though
today I almost ran to the office, got the forms and just
walked out of the school. I know it's stupid, but the main
reason I want to transfer is because of friend issues. I
know I sitll have Katie and... sorta Caitlin. But give me a
break. I need more friends than that. But it's not only
that, I mean, I'm not even that close to Katie. My parents
wont let me talk to Marlyna or Gentry. They can just fuck
off, cuz I wont let them ruin Gentry's and my plan to re-do
her room. Though it pisses me off that they can't
understand about Marlyna, especially now. Right now she's
the closest person to me. Maybe I will transfer. Though I
would like to try going to Wilson next year and see how
things go. ugh. I just don't know.
I tried as hard as I could for school these past few weeks,
but with all the shyt that's been happening, I haven't been
doing too well. I know I'm getting a low D in stack (global
studies). Hopefully I get a B on my final. That should
raise my grade. Then there's PE. Somehow I'm getting a C.
Don't ask me how, but I am. Good news though, I'm getting a
C or MAYBE... a B in geometry. So that's really cool. For
Biology, well... who the fuck knows. That teacher both
scares and annoys me. For english I think I may be getting
a C. Maybe a D because I didn't turn in my book report.
Though before the book report, she said I was getting a B
or an A. So maybe that book report wont hurt my grade too
much. I'm hoping. For french... well... eh. I don't know.
I've been skipping that class lately. I mean, somedays I
just feel like I can't take it any longer or I'll end up
flipping out so I just leave. Though I think I'll do well
on my final, so that should help my grade. Last time I
asked, I was getting a C. So... I don't think I'm failing
any classes. I hope not anyways. If I'm lucky my dad will
help me out to buy my guitar. I've got about $80, but he
said I need to pay off my library shyt. ugh. LOL. But if he
helps me out, I could be getting my guitar early this
summer. Also, I'm giving a gutiar lesson to someone who's
paying me. So that's pretty cool. I just have to figure out
how to play the fucking song she wants to learn. LMAO.
Huh... I think I'm loosing weight. Eh. I'm planning on
going jogging alot this summer. Maybe I'll ask Katie to
join me. That's if she isn't too fucking lazy. LOL.
Actually, besides hanging out with Gentry, there isn't much
I plan to do. I just want to figure a few things out. LOL.
Ok, that's a lie. I pretty much plan on a few movies here
and there with friends, but most of the time I plan on
keeping myself busy with volunteer work at the library or
the C.A.T. Either one is fine with me as long as it keeps
me busy. Though I wish they'd pay me. Besides that, maybe
I'll get together with Beth. Help her out on her music.
Maybe I'll even call Sam and do the same thing. Ya never
know. Alright, I've written enough shyt in here. The funny
thing is I can't remember what I've written. So before I
decide on reading it (which then will lead me to erase it),
I'll just submit this stupid entry. Later.




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