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The Life of a Teenage Girl
2004-05-29 06:17:37 (UTC)

5-28-04 9:54 P.M.

Well I am talking to that guy Matt that I wrote about last
time. He is so sweet. Matt is always there for me and
always tries to help me the best that he can. His advice
rocks and almost always works except for like 1 out of 10
times. Well actually more like 1 out of 20 times but
whatever. I love him so much. He is such a flirt to and
that really hurts though because I just get so jealous! And
sometimes I don't even thinks he means it when he tells
Heather that he likes her. Things are just so confusing
sometimes. And every so often I even lie aboout myself to
get him to pay attention to me. So even if he did like me I
wouldn't feel right because he wouldn't like the real me.
He would like the made up me. No one knows the way I really
am. I hide myself from everyone because of all my
insecurities. And the real funny thing is that I lie about
my insecurities. i tell people that I am not insecure.
Really I don't want to be insecure but it is just something
that comes naturally. It's like me and dancing. That is the
one thing that I personally think I can do. But anyways,
you can't really taught to dance. The grove comes to you
naturally and that is kind of how my insecurites come to
me. I cant help it. No one helped me to be that way either.
I think that it has to do with me looking in the mirror
everyday, picking at myself and calling myself ugly.
Sometimes a blade is just so close to me that I have to
leave the room just so that I don't do anything crazy. I
know scary huh? But anyways.. back to Matt. He is totally
perfect but wayyyyy to good for me. I swear.. if he didn't
like in Canada I would so get with him because he said that
he thinks that me and him would be a good match. But he
also made me promise not to tell anyone that I said that
because then Heather would be hearbroken and all. Once
again.. life is totally dramatic for a frikin 12 year old!
Why doesn't God give this kind of life to adults and
seniors? Well if seniors had this much pressure I think
that they would probably have a heart attack so thats a
good thing that they don't but what about adults? All they
have to worry about are the bills. Plus most of them have a
companion who worries about the other half of the adult
delima so therefore I think it totally sucks that teenagers
who are younger have to deal with even more issues. How
many times do I have to state that? I am starting to scare
myself with the prepiness so I will shut up now. Anyways...
I am going to Oregon tomarow unfortunantly... I am on my
period which totally sucks because then I am going to have
to be at my uncle's house with his annoying two daugters
which I really don't get along with. I have to love them
and all because they are my cousins but they are still some
of the most annoying people on the planet. One of them are
a few months older than me so she likes to teast me about
that but I am taller than her and she wears my old
clothes.. I would tease her about that but I am not that
low. Plus seeeing my uncle is worth it. He is a famous
horse jockey so it is totally awesome me having my picture
up on the wall of fame in the jockey hall in Oregon. It's
not just me and him though. I actually think that there are
people in there that aren't even supposed to be in there.
Ya see.. everyone that is associated with the jockey that
wins a race gets a GIANT picture of them and the rest of
the associates along in the picture. I think that I hid my
face behind the poster they made all the kids and teenagers
hold up but at least they could see my beautiful shorts and
flip-flops! LOLZ. I can imagine it now.. "wow.. she has
great legs.. she should be a leg model.." haha fantasizing
isnt a bad thing! I cant help it if i am perfect in every
way possible.. haha.. just kidding.i think that i am just
going to type a few words a couple dozen times for a
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