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2004-05-28 01:56:44 (UTC)

Some of my old songs that came to mind lately

I've been pretty torn apart inside - so I thought a trip
down memory lane might help. Some gems from my "torn"
past. Be kind readers - these were not written by
professionals - just little ol' me, ok.

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Back When Everything Was...
© Brian Dowding 1996 - (January 17, 1996 - written at the
icehouse)

Back when everything was beautiful
Back when everything was true
Back when everything was innocent
Back when everything was new
I never wanted it to end
I never wanted it to be through
All I ever wanted was everything
Back when everything was you

I never wanted to hurt you
I never wanted to break your heart
All I ever wanted was everything
Now everything tears me apart

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Hold On
© Brian Dowding (lyrics) & Jason Cross (music) 1994

In your ocean
Peace I find
Soaked in reverence
Peace of mind

Safe at harbour
Total trust
Once in a lifetime
Erodes to dust

I hold on
I hold on
I hold on
To you
To you

In your calm
Sailing down
Sharpened waves
I panic and drown

Tamed descent
Loss of air
Beam of light
Salvations' there

Hold on
Tight my friend
Not a beginning,
Not an end

Destined blindly
Burns a new sun
Diamond soul
All is one

I hold on
I hold on
I hold on
To you
To you

In your eyes
Deep I see
No horizon
Warm and free

Burning candle
Dancing flame
The illusion of infinity
Then never again

Turn back!
The shore is near
Try to warn me
But I can't hear

Awaken
Confused and blind
Anchored soul
With you in mind

I hold on
I hold on
I hold on
To you
To you

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The Song
© Alissa O'Connor & Brian Dowding 1993
(lyrics © Alissa O'Connor 1993 - (November 30, 1993))
(music © Brian Dowding 1994 - (March 11, 1995))

If I should die in my sleep tonight
If I should never wake up again
If I should go deaf or blind
Would you leave me here all alone
Would you pick up the pieces and leave
Or would you sit and think of me

Because

If you should die in your sleep tonight
If you should never wake up again
If you should go deaf or blind
I would mourn for you forever
I would sit by your side and cry
I would do anything I could do for you

For I love you, I need you
And I'll never let you go
No matter what the circumstances
I'll always be here
Just for you my dear

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Spirit Chaser
© Brian Dowding 2000

Just another snowy night
Cold feet and icy breath
And I'm 20 miles away
From realizing where I'm going

Though your never in my sight
You beat inside my chest
It would warm me for today
If it would just stop snowing

Now I think I understand, but the worlds much colder
But at least I have its weight raised off my shoulders
Now I think I understand, but the worlds much colder
But at least I have its weight raised off my shoulders

The sky is black tonight
I just wish I could see the stars
It doesn't seem like much
But the small stuff makes me feel better

Somewhere in warmth and light
Or in one of the passing cars
Someone enjoys your touch
While I try to enjoy this weather

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Aphrodite's Suicide
© Brian Dowding 2001 - (October 3, 2001)

My one redeeming virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya
My one redeeming virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya

So I pick up all the pieces and try to start again
They're all hidden underneath the veils
But if they're pieces of delusion of something that never
ends
Well they're better off broke if it only fails

My one remaining virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya
My one remaining virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya

So I picked up all the pieces trying to start again
But this time there was nothing left behind the veils
A fact that seemed so obvious
I guess its not for all of us
Don't get hung up or you'll get de-railed

Reaching out
Lust about
The beautiful
You're so beautiful
Reaching out
Lust about
The beautiful
You're so beautiful
You're so beautiful
So Beautiful
It kills me
It kills me
It kills me
It kills me
So Beautiful
It kills me
It kills me

My one remaining virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya...

The sky parts just before her lips
Her words hang in the air
A chill as my thoughts are eclipsed
And a warmth from her stare

Time
Just
Stands
Still
I'm fighting to be there
Could it be better if some things had just never been

Sometimes oceans lay between us
As I run my hands through your hair
Just memories like phantoms with a vengeance
Smother me unless they see how you care

Time
Just
Stands
Still
Tell me "Be strong and bear"
Easy for you to say, I don't know where to begin

But I keep on fighting
Like the soft crack of lightning
Here I am
Cast in shadows
Cast in shadows
Memory makes the cut in me
While I am
Cast in shadows

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To Kate
(c) Brian Dowding 1999

I feel
Something I know is true
How that fire in your eyes
Burns the blue into the skies
And see's me through

It's unreal
what love can make you do
Did you know every word you breath
Later whispers throught the trees
When I miss you

You make me feel alive

With eternity in your eyes
And an infinity in your smile
How can I make you realize
Or have you known it all the while?

Through your art I felt myself become
Drawn to you
Drawn together
Drawn into your own delusions
Drawn to accept your snap conclusions
Even when they were sketchy

But I guess I was just trippin' on a paper heart
That feels so thin
Now that we're drawn apart
But I guess I was just trippin' on a paper heart
The story's foreshadowed
Should have known from the start

Sometimes it got so hard to know who you were
Inflict me through you yet make my sympathy for you stir
Another masterpiece where you are still the star
Another victim sings about you with his guitar

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