lindsay

pride and joy
2004-05-24 20:00:04 (UTC)

bord out of my mind!!!

hey pple just got home from a hard day of school its soo
hott here grrr the days are getting longer and longer as i
wait 4 the first day of summer break.today went preaty
well i had lots of fun talking 2 the guys at lunch 2 day
it seems so much easier 2 talk 2 them then it does w/ the
girls i love hanging out w/ them and they just know how 2
have fun!!! im really happy i got inot cosmo at the votec
4 next year thatll b cool.today my friend nina and i were
messin round i hit her then she pushed me just being
complet jackasses well my teacher told us not 2 do that
and that she was going 2 send us 2 the office if it
happend again but yet when the guys play around they donyt
say ne thing then she told me its imature but i sick of
being mature i just wanna be me and have some fun i dont
care how imature that may seem 2 them but yet i dont
really care.i mean ur only i kid once and i am truely a
lil kid @ heart!!!!hmmm im sitting here wondering how 2
tell my friend carrington that i like him ive like him
since the begging of the year but never had the courage 2
tell him face 2 face but im preaty sure he knows.mmmmm i
get a hug from him every day after school he just feels so
good in my arms but their is no chance of us ever hooking
up he said he doesnt want 2 get involved w/ ne one right
now.whitch is cool w/ me cause i dont know if im ready 4
ne thng permedent yet it may feel that way w/ him
sometimes but i think its just in my mind and not my
heart.whats the piont of trying when it always ends the
same i am a really nice girl most of the time dont get me
wrong i can b a real bitch but only 2 those i know and
love lol but i always get stuck w/assholes so i dont even
bother going out w/ them its all a waist of time ive been
trying not 2 consintrate on the dream of hooking up w/
someone like carrington but i guess im just a dreamer!!!
ahhhh how can i get up the courage 2 tell him how i
feel!!!!hehe i tried 2 tell him face 2 face ya know but
then i slip and start talking about somehting else like
omg this is a good one i was trying 2 tell him i likeds
him then i started talking bout the basketball game that
he had i asked who won omg i completly froze i cant c how
one guy can do that 2 me!!!sometimes its kinda scares me...
we have 6 days left of school cant wait but the sad part
is that i wont b able 2 c carringtons sweet loving face
ill b @ my dads 4 the summer!!! but ill have fun ne ways
maybey the time away will do me good and ill 4 get all
bout the feelings i have for him....god i hope he's not
reading this!!!!that would b horrifing....oh well then at
least he would have some clue that i like him lol but its
sorda obvious...!!!hahahah well i g2g for no ill write
more 2-maro if i can peace &love
~LOVE ALWAYS~
LINDSAY
P.S MY NEW SCREEN NAME IS lil_devil00069_07-yahoo my aol
is lovelylindsay15 toodles




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