jptart

Teenage life
2004-05-24 15:16:18 (UTC)

WHY!

Everyday I wake up and as soon as I wake up, I think about
Sara. I think how i'm never gonna be able to touch her
again, and how some other guy will. It hurts sooo bad. I
hate it, I mean i really really HATE IT! Part of me is over
sara, part of me isnt. Part of me hates her, part of me
likes her. I dont know what to do. Well there is nothing I
Can do. Even if by some chance she liked me the same way
she used to. I couldnt go back out with her. How could i
ever trust her again? Then theres the part of me that wants
to trust her. But i know what the right thing to do is.
I'll never have to worry if she would like me again. I know
she would never like me again. To be honest I dont know if
she even liked me in the first place. It doesnt really seem
like it.
Then theres another part of me that wants to get another
girl friend. Then theres another part of me that thinks
girls are stupid and immature. I WISH I HAD JUST ONE PART!
Man, what point is there to liking girls? None of them have
ever liked me, so why shoot myself in the foot? Right now
girls arent very mature yet. Hopefully the "yet" will come
soon. Basically me and sara broke up in vain. There was no
purpose to it. If there was she hasnt told me... How could
she start liking another guy?!?! That part I dont get. I
know i'm fat, ugly, and just i guess not a good person. But
what did i do?
I HATE THIS!!




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