brown eye angel

Lisa's Life
2004-05-24 02:01:06 (UTC)

Wow i had no clue...

I never realized how much my ex really still cared for me
until last night when he got mad at him for "flaunting" my
friendship with guys in his face. It seemed to have
really hurt him alot. I don't want to hurt him at all. I
know that things are over between the 2 of us and we both
have to move on but i'm thinking that as long as i'm
living here i won't really be able to do that for now
since i'm stuck in a dead end job with only high school
education. I'm going back in the fall and all but i could
be another year and a half before i'm able to get out of
here. How could i bring my boyfriend here if he is
thinking that i'm going to be flaunting my relationships
in his face to hurt him. Oh well we'll see how things
play out in the next little while. I also hope that he
realizes that despite the fact that i no longer love him
in a romantic way and don't want to be with him but that i
really care for him and hurting him is something that i
don't want to do.

Now for a rant. Stupid stupid stupid stupid knee. I was
having such a good week until today. It hurts so much and
what makes things worse is knowing that at anytime i'm
going to have to give up physio b/c of the stupid liberal
government not going to have OHIP cover physio so that
means if i need to have surgery that means that i'm going
to really have no money b/c i will have to pay for
physio. Stupid government. At least i voted so now i can
go and bitch about the fact that i'm not happy. I'm
hoping that the liberals will change their minds. I can
keep praying. And hope.
~Lisa~




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