jelly

dirty and delicious
2004-05-21 14:14:53 (UTC)

why life is so shit

my life is so shit.
okay, that's a bit melodramatic but one aspect of it is.
my lovelife or rather, jaheezabub's love life. He's going
out with someone. someone who isn't me. someone pretty and
skinny and nice and funny and oh, did i mention pretty!??
it's not fair. i don't want him to go out with her. he
could be just as happy if he was going out with me, and
what's more iwould be happy too. life is so shit.
I know he's just a guy but i can't help the way i feel.
i've tried to get over him for ages but i just fall for him
even more. when i think about datting other guys i just
feel hollow, i can't picture another guts face if i think
about being kissed or datting or anything. i havn't ever
felt this way before adn i don't like it. it's more than
just a crush but i won't let it be, from now on he means
nothing to me. except as an aquaintance. i'll go out with
the next guy who asks me.
except i won't because that wouldn't be fair.




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