smellycat

there are no more secrets anymore
2004-05-20 02:08:57 (UTC)

fjdkal; feuaiojfdklsa; mfdkl; ajfkdlj afksdla

9 58pm

mood: restless agitated aggravated tense wired

music: poison the well - artists rendering of me


With all my said unsaids / Never swallow
The idea of a happy ending
Another days memory dies
As I'm made to smile / these lifeless days
have left me with an empty heart
another wounded memory dies
I could / never / swallow your false ideals
of a lifeless / happy ending
how could words slit wrists and doors close
present day heart felt moments / killed by a slap
to the hand / another wounded memory dries
poisonous screams with messages
not thought of when released
another day here / another memory dies


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im sitting here waiting for the bomb to drop, not sure if
it will ever drop at all, or if it does, perhaps im
waiting for nothing now, only for it to fall on me right
when i least expect it... forgetting all the things that
i've planned to say... here i am, sitting here the tension
building almost to the point where i might burst,
listening to some fool scream into my ears against
electric guitars, my aggression trying to be relieved
through this music.. its somewhat working........... i
just want to know... just want to know, want to hear it,
then say what i need to say, so that i can be on my way...
and perhaps sleep tonight. is yet another night going to
be denied to me once again because of this stupid stupid
stupid imagination of mine?

i felt good all day... little did i know that even in my
unconscious things were still boiling over in my brain. i
just knew it... first moment of quiet caused it to snap
and throw me back in again.... blah blah blah blah blah
blah....


well lu called on the phone .... time to pretend to be
happy now...




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