Nissie RoKz

Pink,... Punk... Life RoKz!
2004-05-16 04:42:39 (UTC)

i dont even no

This night has been so shytie for me. I dont wanna be
around NE one, yet i want somone to listen. What am i
suposed to do? everytime i do somthing, i feel so like out
of place, even tho everyone else is doin it to. maybe
things arnt NE better for me. I just make it seem that way
SOMTIMES. I guess things wont change after all, and if
they do... its not much better for me NE way.

i just dont no what to do, i feel like shyt i look like
shyt *right now NE way* everything sucks. I no thats not
nice. But its true. Maybe im just made b/c of the
whole... um...er... *ellet* thing, but i dont think its
that, b/c, ha, i dont even no that kid. Maybe its b/c im
always eXcluded when i try so hard to fit in? maybe i just
shouldnt try NE more, i be myself and no one notices, i be
somone else, and no one notices. I guess w/e i do,... im
SOL

odds are i should be myself. Witch is what i thought i was
doin, but i dont no, b/c somtimes i just wanna fit in so
bad. Tommorrow i think things are goin to different, but i
dont no how. i just wish i didnt have to go, or somthing.
maybe i will skip the end so i can do somthing else. i
mean May Festa is great dont get my wrong, but its just to
much, yeah im always w/ someone but thats it, dont you just
wanna get a way somtimes, and theres nowhere to "get away"
too at the school, kids and/or police are everywhere, thats
shyt altogether, but im not even goin there.

I guess thats all for now. Oh and for courtney, HAHA, i
cant change my way message alot NE more b/c my g-pa is
ALWAYS on the computer, so yeah its like i can get on a
weird times.... its sucky really! but yeah


Im goin to go


HugZ and more HUGZ

~Nissie~




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