Pritheos

My Diary (Brill title)
2004-05-13 22:12:20 (UTC)

And now for something completely different....

In the words of the Monty Python boys...anyway thats the
theme of this entry as I'm going to include a conversation
from MSN with Lee, my new psychiatrist (:D)

Lee says:
young tippet,

Lee says:
how sails the boat of love ?

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
like a brick at the moemnt

Lee says:
lol, mine has a simular resemblance to ur brick,

Lee says:
why the brick similie ?

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
first thing that came to mind...

Lee says:
what brang it to mind ?

Lee says:
why so bad ?

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
s'not, just..i want her ...badly

Lee says:
what makes you want her so bad ?

Lee says:
not that person, i mean what part of love is it you seek ?

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
I don't know....

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
maybe..companionship...I'm not sure

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
but my ICT work is done...

Lee says:
as part of being human, we are always trying to complete
our own happyness, searching, discovering.

You just want the feeling of completion, the devotion and
responability ?

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
..perhaps

Lee says:
you hear the songs, you see the people, you imagine how it
could be yourself ?

Lee says:
and hope stronger that someday it is ?

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
i know love is over dramatised by the media these
days..I'd just like to experience it formyself..you know?

Lee says:
i know exactly how you feel,

Lee says:
you go out with mates, thinking of her ?

Lee says:
you doing ur cwk, in hope one day the success might be
recognised by her ?

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
not the latter, but certainly the fomer

Lee says:
ah i c

Lee says:
harriet has left ctc , no bye, no good lucks...

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
oh no, poor lee

Lee says:
the memories, the way the sun bounced of her hair, and
radiated it, so animated different, no program no
instructions, her falsy focused eyes on mine, living the
days, wishing i had said how i felt...

dont make the same mistake.

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
so..ignore previous advice and go for it...?

Lee says:
yes

Lee says:
i was wrong, the only thing that matters is love, without
it, we are confined love thirsty zoombies.

Lee says:
if i could spell

Lee says:
there is one day remaining, Friday; yr13's attend, yr12's
do not, still hoping she will walk into her ICT lesson,
lee will hope for one last time.

Steve - Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down, like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me
down says:
the last stand of Lee

Lee says:
knowing i tried everything possible, before i accept the
cold blooded fact, of it something out of my reach.

Lee says:
live a long life wondering, what she would have said,
knowing the posability, of what you could have done ?

life a long life, where you knew how she felt, grieving in
less pain over a mistake you knew was a mistake ?

Steve: I know what she feels though..nothing for me..its
obvious...

A frank warning from Mr Chantrey there. Now he's moved on
to the CTC, i feel I can confide more in him, since i
don't see him every day..I don't know, I just think i do...

Sorry to refering to ya Lee, but no-ones gonna read this
and know you except those you've left behind at the
Grange.

Well, Wink seems to have noticed my problems. He forced me
to admit that maybe i wasn't happy with life, but i stand
by my feelings that my life is fine, I would just like
some small improvements (you know what I'm talking about)
but, (borrowing again from Monty Python) always look on
the bright side of life (No-one suspects the spanish
inquisition!!!!) *coughs* damn that film......can't
remember its name..sliding something.....anyway..moving on

yes, hes worked out I'm not happy and has taken to
telling me over MSN to 'get out more'.......I could get
better advice from Bolster ("Don't think about it" lotta
help you are John :P). At least better than dave's advice
("kill her and rape the corpse" :S )

Thing is, teelig me things like that don't help me AT
ALL... the my timidness has not been supressed as it has,
the dark corners have gotten to me..walking back into the
light will be a slow process.

This entry is huge.....wow. But I guess this issue must
attempt to be buried here, tonight, or else all my diary
entries will be as gloomy as the latest batch.

I can't say it was an instant attraction. I guess I don't
believe in love at first sight. But, shes grown on me,
over the last year....NO, NO MORE..this is too hard to
write knowing people WILL read it. Neil most certainly,
Russel most probaby, wink possibly, loads more know of my
website...

So, it lives on, the issue, for another night. Talking
about it does make me feel better though.

Until next time, comrades, colleagues and perverts

Steve




Ad: