smellycat

there are no more secrets anymore
2004-05-13 01:54:31 (UTC)

sad stage

9 41 pm

mood: i dont know the word for it, but that moment after
being horribly depressed and crying and then your ex
roommate amy says something goofy to make you crack a
smile and feel a bit more relieved.... umm i'll call
it "amy'd"
music: none

i broke down today and fought with every member of my
family except for my mom because i dont have to hide
anything from her anymore... then i got my ass out of the
house and went to the library to read which completely
relaxed me and was a perfect 5 hour escape. now im home,
and i found out he was just as bummed today as i was.

i DONT want him to be depressed... cause knowing that he
is, gives me hope that he might still want me back if i
suggested it... i dont know how much of a good idea that
is... but now im thinking... why the fuck did we have to
end a perfectly good thing????

this is such a bizarre situation and fuck fuck fuck





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