Firestorm RayvenMoon

Mind, Body, and Soul in Flames
2004-05-10 05:04:11 (UTC)

*creams hope with a recoiless hammer*

Well... yet again I am hoping for a new position. A friend
told me that a clerical position at the Perry Hospital was
practically guaranteed if I get an application in, and he
is bringing an application by after work tomorrow. I wish
I didn't get my hopes up so much, but I can't seem to help
it... damnit.

I am turning in my two weeks notice to the nature center
tomorrow morning :( I know my boss is going to be upset,
she was rather miffed about the idea when I ran it by her
this past Friday, and offered the option of working
Saturday and Sunday instead of Mon, Fri, and Sat. I mulled
it over Friday night and Saturday, and decided that I would
much rather have the free time instead of the measly pay
that I get there.

Another wedding angst... I have too much time to think at
this job I'm at now heh... But, the weddding my lover and I
want will be considered scandalous (most likely) by most of
my family and probably part of his. So what to do? Do we
just not tell them the details and let them see when they
show up? *sighs* I just hope no one makes a fuss and
tries to ruin the day. That would suck beyond all measure
of suckage in my life so far.

And on another note... why is it that guys want to hit on
people who are taken? And when they are told no, and told
that the person is already taken, engaged, been in the
relationship for a long long time and not looking to
sabotage it with some ridiculous, frivolous, and
meaningless fling, they still insist on trying to change a
girl's mind? It's quite frustrating. Even more
frustrating because I see these guys so much during the
week and there is no avoiding them. *mutters*

I am getting more and more nervous about this surgery
Friday... by Thursday night, full fledged fear will have
set in, and by Friday morning, I will be surprised if I am
not in a state of terror high enough to send me into a
panic. I have not had good experiences with medical
personell in the past, and I am not expecting this to be
any better... *grumbles* But, I was given a direct order..
one of the few that my lover ever gives to me... so I set
the appointment, took two consecutive days off work, and I
guess I am going to be roped into it regardless of how I
feel about it. I know it is the sensible thing to do. I
don't want my wisdom teeth to cause me to lose all my other
teeth, but I damn sure wish there was another way to go
about it than surgery... *sniffles and shivers*

On a brighter note, I e-mailed Fairy Goth Mother to ask
about the corset and skirt I am interested in. I know, I
am jumping the gun horribly, but I figure the more info I
get together now, the less I will have to worry about later
when we actually get a date set and get things rolling. I
don't like to leave things till the last minute and have a
shit pile of stress all over me. I would rather have as
much taken care of already as possible and then just put
the pieces together when the time comes.

Another item that I was seriously keeping my eye on to buy
whenever we have a place of our own was this awsome bondage
bed. Made of solid steel, with strategically placed
bondage rings and all that loveliness. Unfortunately, the
only place I found that stocked it, no longer stocks it. I
e-mailed them, hopfully they will have an alternate contact
for the company or something, so I can see if the bed is
still in production, or if I'm just out of luck.

Anyways... it's 1 am and I have to be up soon, so of to bed
I trot.

)O(
Firestorm RayvenMoon




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