Cassandra

"Daddy"
2004-05-09 23:10:35 (UTC)

I just give up!

All my life I try to make ppl happy not worring about
myself. And all I manage to do is get hurt not only by
friends,boyfriends, but now my family exspecially my
mother.She lies and deceives me all the time just I dont
feel like she's a mother no more I dont even feel close to
her she's done so much in my life to hurt me and still
continues to do it even as we speak nuttin will ever change
I mean what mother physically and mentally abuses there
kids then turn around and call her own daughter a fucking
bitch and whore when she wants to break up with a guy! And
what mother would start dating her daughters x-boyfriends
and say" well he only went out with you cuz you were so
much like me!" Those words have stuck in my head since I
have been 17yrs old and I still cry as it rings in my ears!
I Dont know I wish like hell my father never died this shit
wouldnt have happened we wouldnt have been treated like
dogs my father was very protective of me as well as my
little brother and sister. All I know is there's kids out
there that have had worse childhood then mine but when you
get thinking of shit it just really brings you down ya
know? Right now I hate my life Daddy the only good thing
that has come out of my life thats good is your beautiful
grandson! THATS IT! Other wise my life has been a totally
failure. Sometimes Daddy I dont think I make Cody happy I
still feel like Im doin something wrong. One thing I do
know Daddy hes beautiful, and smart, and wild lmao you
would be proud of him well gots to go Daddy later and I
Love You and miss you




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