piglm

down in my eyes
2004-05-05 23:23:41 (UTC)

around in circles.

It's just been so long. I don't know how to
completely say how i feel.

I miss OJ. But, for the life of me, i can't
understand why.

I don't care about him. & he doesn't care about me..
He chose to break my heart so badly,
then kicked it away. He first allowed his girlfriend
to express the burden, for him. At my request, for
some peace of mind, he repeated his own words &
bitterness himself.

I once could have sworn i cared about him, & ithought
he did, in return. In my eyes, he was a Perfect
friend. I swear that i could see it, & I could feel
it. But in a moment,... he made it disappear. as if
those times Never existed. After he called me a bitch
in his diary, that's when i realized that the Sweet
Darlin' i thought i had, was only an illusion.

I DON'T, & I Never needed him. He obviously Never
needed me. My mind knows this reality.
Why won't my heart just let him go.

I know Oj doesn't read my diaries, anymore. So i'm
safe. I can't let him know this... Shhh, don't tell
him. It's a secret.




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