eidolon

not amused... [written April 24th 2004]

Is it really so hard? Is it so very difficult to be honest??

It's like I'm dressed up in my mother's clothing
It's like I'm talking to a voice that doesn't exist
It's like I got a wire crossed upstairs
But all I want is just a little truth and that's it

I don’t care .... have never cared .... what comes out of
your ‘mouth’ as long as it was honest – As long as it was
the TRUTH. I have no cares as to what your life is like, if
you have a wonderful job or no job at all, if you have
loved ones or are completely alone, if you have money or
are poorer than dirt. I don’t care. All I care about, all
that’s important to me, is that you are HONEST with me.

They say I'm mental but I'm just confused
They say I'm mental but I've been abused
They say I'm mental cause I'm not amused by it all

I wouldn’t judge those things you’ve done wrong .... hell,
I have my own sins to deal with. I don’t care about yours
as long as our friendship remains as important to you as it
is to me. But I do care that you are honest with me. When
you lie and deceive you tell me that our friendship means
nothing, that I mean nothing to you. You tell me that
because you KNOW how I feel about lying and yet you do it
anyway.

Another anchor man was on the TV
He's got that far away vacant look in his eyes
I turn the channel but nothing is changing
The only truth is that everything is a lie

hon·es·ty ’än-e-stee n, pl - ties 1 obx : CHASTITY
2 a : fairness and straightforwardness of conduct b :
adherence to the facts : SINCERITY
syn HONESTY, HONOR, INTEGRITY, PROBITY shared
meaning element : uprightness of character or action
ant DISHONESTY

ly·ing’li-in adj [prp. of 3lie] 1 : marked by or given
to falsehood 2 : likely or calculated to mislead
syn see DISHONEST

They say I'm mental but I'm just confused
They say I'm mental but I've been abused
They say I'm mental cause I'm not amused by it all

It’s been apparent for some time now that you’re
definitions of honesty and lying and mine are drastically
different. Either that or you just hold everyone else to a
higher standard of behavior than you do yourself. Of
course, perhaps through your personalized definition of
honesty and lying you are being completely forthright, open
and honest. Because it doesn’t really matter because you
know what my definition of lying is.

There's truth in everything, there's truth in lies
All this knowledge but I think I'm gonna be wise

With the addition of bald face lying, in my opinion
omission with the intent of concealing something important
is lying. Using the truth to propagate, nurture or conceal
a lie is lying. Deceit is a form of lying.

They say I'm mental but I'm just confused
They say I'm mental but I've been abused
They say I'm mental cause I'm not amused by it all

You know how I feel on this and yet apparently you don't
care.

Not at all Not at all Not at all Not at all
Not at all Not at all Not at all

And if you don’t care .... then why should I care about you?

Lyrics courtesy of the song “Mental” by the Eels.