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2004-05-03 23:40:27 (UTC)

Fin

Fin means end... and i called today Fin bc i just wanted
it to hurry up and end... today was... damn i dunno yo...
at school... it was iight... no one really talked to me n
at lunch i got mad... Amy really fuckin pisses me off ....
5th period me n Luren nd Siarea were going to skipp but i
got there too late n they dumbasses went in tha class room
instead of waiting for me in tha bathroom... n in 5th this
boy chirs was pissin me off n he was tryin to look down my
shirt... i yelled real loud wtf u lookin at?! damn...
anyway so when that period ended... i went on to 6th n
Mike was there... and he had me rollin for a min n then we
got into a deep conversation... yeah he can be mean at
times..but hes smart that kat is real smart... n then we
got introuble for talkin... anyway...after school i was
running around tha skoo lookin for Christine so we could
be out... bc we aint ride tha bus...we drove home.... n on
the way home my head started really hurting... n it was
hurting all day but it was huritn to the point where
everything was turning blurry... man..finally we got
home...... nd we went in my room n we were talkin... n
then we got ready to go work out... but then i heard her
sing... n i was like hey listen to these beats and we
started messin around with singing n then we started
writing songs n i was helping her out with her voice and
she was helping me out... n then... oh man... she went
into tha bathroom... and she was there for a long time...
i was wondering what she was doing... i thought she just
had to go number 2 until... i heard some one throwing
up... n at the time i was reading this email Ty wrote
me... i started crying bc now its 2 people who goin thru
this n Ty is starting to get worse n im afraid he wont
pull thru this n he gone leave me n his siter n keesha n
all these ppl hangin n i cant do it... i cant handle it
anymore.. n thats why i get so mad... but man i dunno i
feel so badly about it all...but it dont help when now
theres 2 ppl..... :-/ .......i missed him all day i miss
him now n his line is busy... i was trying to practice to
sing him a song but i dunno man... things have chnaged so
badly and i miss him... i miss tha way he usually is... i
miss him being happy... i just.. miss everything.... i
miss Jerell too... man but yesterday ... im not even gone
get into what happened yesterday... i wanted to cry...
like 4 or 5 tears came out n then i stopped bc too many
heads was around...but today... man i cried.... now...im
more calm...but i aint really have anyone to talk
to...this week i have a lot of projects n tests to due n
doo.... n its stressin me out already n tomorrow imma miss
6th n 5th period bc of testing oh man n i know imma fail
it... im so dumb i feel so dumb n stupid n no one
understands... n i sit there n i try so hard to laugh it
off but i go right baq to feelin tha same... damn... i
hate this shit... n i feel tears welling up...but im not
gone cry.. i did engough today... its just...man my head
hurts... i dunno... n my knee is hurting too...n i wish
all this pain im feelin would just go away ... i miss
Jill... i dont think she knows tho... i kinda talked to
her tho yuesterday... so that was ok... i dunno man...
anyway... this weekend im going to 6 flags... i dunno if
imma ride anything or not... i might ... i might not...
who knows...i hope its hot that day tho.. bc im gettin my
hair braided n im wearin shorts n i really cute shirt...
but i dunno oh well... n friday im takin christine out to
eat n problly gone get her sutitn for her bday.....since
her mother isnt there for her... i will be... anyway... i
gtg... i have this project i have to start n do... ill...
ttyl when i have some more time i guess....
so for my diary for today?
**Fin**

take care
God Bless
on3 1uv

Me*

*Nd I wish I could........... (suttin im writing)*


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