bluemoon

I WISH I COULD JUST DIE

SO HERE IS THE PROBLEM.... RICKY TELLS ME ONE DAY THAT HE
THINKS HE MIGHT ME IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. THEN HE TOLD
ME THAT HE DONT LOVE HER LIKE THAT. THAT ITS A DIFFRENT
KIND OF LOVE. YES I BELIEVE HIM. BUT I BELIEVE THAT THIS
DIFFRENT KIND OF LOVE THAT HE IS HAVING IS HIM FEELING HE
TRULY LOVES HER. I THINK HE WANTS TO BE WITH HER HE JUST
DON'T KNOW HOW TO END IT WITH ME BECAUSE WE HAVE BEEN
TOGETHER FOR SO LONG NOW. I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING IN
THE WORLD AND I ALWAYS WILL. I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW COME HE
STILL STAYS. I BELIEVE HE LOVES ME I TRULY DO BUT NOT THE
WAY I WANT HIM TO.
I WANT HIM TO LOVE ME THE WAY I LOVE HIM, THE WAY HE
LOVES HER. I JUST WANT TO DIE.
I WANT TO CUT MYSELF SO BAD AND JUST LET IT BLEED BUT I
PROMISED I WOULDN'T DO IT ANYMORE. I WANT TO SO BAD. I
JUST WANT TO END MY LIFE. I FEEL LIKE NOTHING.