Eyes4Guys

Personal hell & back again
2004-04-29 07:09:44 (UTC)

I'm drunk

Now that that is out of the way. Rum really speaks for
itself. Yes, I've been spending the nightg at Tom's house,
but, of course he is engaged and reminds me of Chris. I
love Chris still. I always have. But I know he will never
trust me and I have fuckin chance with him. I wish i could
be wiht him still. Iwouldn't cheat on him, I'd be true,
get reasonable jobs and spennd my entire life around him.
I'd marry him and have anything he wanted. Kids, a normal
life. But Chris doesn't want me and Tom does thogh he is
engaged. Whatever the tarot says, right? It says that Tom
is my surprise and that Chris and I are dead. I don't
believe that. I love him and love prevails over all,
right? God I hope so. I love him, I 've loved him more
than I've ever loved anyone befopre and it isn't the damn
rum in my system.

I LOVE CHRIS




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