Beauty Within

Fuck Me Pretty
2004-04-24 20:16:34 (UTC)

I saw my baby ((Mand not Tyler))

Ok so here I am. I saw Mandi, omg I am so happy I almost
cried when I saw her. I can't do this bullshit of not
being able to see her unless we are at someone else's
house. I talked to Jake a second ago but he was away.. not
that you guys care so this is mostly for Mand, so Mand I
told him "Hey Jake, I know your away. But I had a
question. Memorial Day weekend, what are you doing? cuz
Mand, Malia, and I are ((hopefully)) having a fuck fest at
my house. Malia's boy friend is commin over and my Tyler
is commin over and if u can come than that would be tight.
If u can, Mand said that you and her acll tibbs on my
Mom's bed and the hot tub so yea hit me back Fish." so yea
i will update you when he ever hits me back.

I have to pee.... be right back.

this is me being back. anyway yea i went pee, did u know
that. ok well yea so I should be doing my homework right
now, but im not. I also have to get ready for a wedding in
a few hours, its at 5:30 but we are leaving at 4:30 and
its in some big fancy rented hall so I have to wear a long
fancy dress, omg it's so beautiful and where did I get it?
How much did it cost? Ross $12 haha and it's perfect, omg
i love it. I wish everyone could see me in it, haha. but
yea so i will probably get ready at 4:00 and straighten my
hair at 3:30.

I hate my mother. Omg last night before Malias party she
gave me crap about my grades again and I have been working
so hard and doing so good and all my teachers keep
saying "your doing so good, I know you can do it" and all
my mom says is "Don't be lazy you did this in the past,
come on kawai don't be stupid" RAWR!!!!!!! For once I like
my teachers more than my mother.... thats a bad sign. I
hate her so much, and I miss Tyler. I think I am learning
to be ok with giving him his space. Ever since he told me
that he liked me, i've been ok going a few days without
talking him. I mean I still miss him and everything but I
know that where ever he is... he likes me. I'm in his
heart, in his mind and I'm ok with that. I don't need to
be talking to him every day now, i don't need that
guarentee that he is thinking of me only because i am
talkin to him, but I'm not talkin to him right now but I
know even if he isn't talkin to me... he just might be
thinking of me too.

Tyler.... baby I love you.

well I think that may be all for now, I'm tired, im kinda
cold, im not sure I wanna go to the wedding but I want to
wear my pretty dress. and I hate my mother. oh and Michael
has prom tonight, I hope he has fun. He's pretty cool,
Believe me I coulda gotten a lot worse for a step
brother.... I wonder if my mom and Mike will ever REALLY
get married. hmmm yea well bye bye




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