Noelle

Yellow Brick Road
2004-04-24 11:05:43 (UTC)

bittersweet

hey tuan. are you doing okay? i wrote to kind of tell you
weird news of my own. last night, i went out with andrew. i
don't know what it is, but it was just weird. until the end
of school, he's going to his trailer every weekend, so i
really don't know when i'll see him except at work. and i
like him, but you know, some things aren't meant to be. and
i think he sensed the weirdness too. it was just weird. it
didn't bug me, per se. like, i didn't cry about it or
anything in bed because i really don't know whats going on,
and im not sad, just more like MEH (yes, meh) THIS BLOWS, I
GUESS ITS JUST NOT TIME. i think he sensed the weirdness
too. i don't want to hold him back from having fun at his
trailer and meeting other girls, and it kind of blows
because i am gone for four and a half weeks at the start of
summer anyway. he's a cool guy, and i want to keep on
hanging out with him, but maybe we put too much pressure on
ourselves from the beginning. we kissed goodbye, but it
wasn't like before. soooooooo im gonna go to work and stand
on the deck and think about not too much, because i slept
last night so obviously this hasn't had too much of an
impact on me.

i have to go eat breakfast now, but you can write me back
if you want and comment or not comment, or talk about what
YOU have going on right now. i feel so selfish, telling you
my problems, when i should be hearing you as you go through
your own. but i had to get that out of me. lol. thanks for
reading.

have a great day tuan.

noelle




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