stutz

The Journal To End All Journals
2004-04-24 00:15:09 (UTC)

The FREAK! I've turned into.

Do I have a welcome back?
This must been well over a year since I've written in this
thing. I don't know why I'm coming back to it, but yeah,
here I am.
It's actually quite funny. I've just read my old entries,
dating my worries last year, and I'm laughing at the school
stuff. So insignificant when I think of it now. It's all so
different now! Well the brilliant thing is that I got into
my Higher Chemistry class, and I've got 2 more weeks in it
before it finishs up. My exams aren't long to go now,
again, being only 2 weeks. I don't personally think I have
prepared enough for them. My prelim results were... I don't
want to say inconclusive, but they didn't give anybody the
results they were looking for. Prime example: my chemistry
class, no one got above 60% in the whole class! Only 3 of
us passed, and guess what, I was one of them. But the
people that failed should be getting As all the time,
because that's the type of folks they are. It indicated a
lot. Firstly that I have to study like hell for my final
exam coming up in a month's time. Secondly that I didn't
take it all that seriously at the beginning. I've got bad
habbits when it comes to studying though. I tend to only
study the subjects I like, ie. biology and chemistry, and
leave out my maths, english and history. History, now
there's a topic to discuss. Where to start? Well when I put
my name down for Higher History and I got the s-grade mark
that allowed me into the class, I was really pleased, and
yes, at the start of the year I loved it. The subject was
really interesting, I got on great with one of the
teachers, but the other... well he's a little less than
interesting, and my work was of an impressive standard. But
then, everything changed. We have to do 3 topics in the
course. One is 'Appeasement and the Road to War', which is
just following the policies of the democratic governments
in the interwar years. Another is 'Growth of Nationalism in
Germany', which was really interesting, and I did well in.
However, the watershed came with the 'Britain's Road to
Democracy' topic. I and everyone else in my class can say
that it could possibly be the most boring thing we've done
in school as of yet. It's just millions of dates and Acts
to remember. Secret Ballot Act - 1872! YUCK!
But today we finished that topic in class, and as a matter
of fact, that's every one my subject's coursework finished.
This means that the real studying can commence :( *ugh* But
one of the main points I was going to make about history is
my feelings towards it about a month ago. At that time I
had had enough of the subject, and I couldn't take it
anymore. I thought that it was so boring and useless, that
I was just going to drop it from my study-adjenda, and let
it swim on its own. My idea behind this was, that I only
need 4 Bs to get into the course I want for Uni, and so I'm
gonna try like hell for a B in maths, A in biology, A/B in
Chemistry and a B in either english or history. My worst
grade was in english and I know that english is a very
useful higher, so I started getting tutored in it, and for
the past month I've been working with a teacher, and he was
giving me help on an essay I've been preparing for. So my
english teacher gave us out the essay question last week,
and I took it home, along with all the notes and help my
tutor gave me, and I wrote out my essay. I handed it in on
the Monday and I got it back on the Tuesday. There was NO
CHANGE in marks! For the whole year I've been getting Cs,
all my critical analysis' were all 14/25, 14/25, 14/25 all
the time. So I thought that with the tutor, I'd get a
better grade. No! Essay paper was sat on my desk: 14/25!!
Well you can't imagine the annoyance it caused for me. I
had done everything my tutor had said, and still I couldn't
raise my grade. So now, I'm just going to drop english, and
aim as high as I can for a good history pass. It's gonna be
hard, but I think I can just about do it.

Ok, sorry I've rambled on for so long about school, but it
is the most important element in my life right now.
Lovelife? Yeah, I've given up on that aspect a while ago.
What was all that whining I was doing about wanting a g/f!?
What a FREAK! Women, who needs them? ..... ME!
But seriously, I've got to concentrate on my exams right
now, and afterwards I'll go back to having some sort of
life. I'm also going to be looking for a job. Possibly in
Safeway. I'd love to work in Safeway - that's where all the
beautiful people shop.

Ok, what am I going to do now? I think I'll go read my book
for a while. Practise those reading skills. UGH!
I may write later, but no promises.
Yours truely, Stuart




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