poeticgem

My sometimes coherent thoughts
2004-04-23 20:05:39 (UTC)

Rampant thoughts

thoughts, complete, incomplete ... jumbled and clear at the
same time all competing for the forefront position in my
brain ... it's just too much sometimes. I wish there was a
little switch you could turn on and off that would stop
them, if only to give a brief respite.

Because of my job situation I'm not able to go to
externship full time like many of the other students which
is causing a bit of a problem because there doesn't seem to
be any facilities with flexible hours - ie evening &/or
weekends. Subsequently, graduate services has given my
resume to an agency to help me find a paying position which
can be used for the credits towards my externship. The
only drawback to this option is the WHAT IF ... what if I
quit my regular JOB to take a temp to perm position and I'm
not hired on after my month of externship? I would be up
shit's creek with a paddle for sure!

Graduate Services called me this morning with the name and
number of a medical billing outsource company looking to
hire, so I called and now I have an interview today after
work - the place is in Sherman Oaks which is a good
location and since they are looking to hire immediately it
could be good if everything works out.

Unfortunately, there is the issue of Chantelle's school and
her wanting to go to Taft next year - if she's even going
to High School - but Taft is in Woodland Hills, closer to
where we live.

I don't know ... there's just so much going on in my brain
right now ... I really can hardly think straight ...

my break is over and since getting the shaft royally this
morning, I now have to be more careful than ever when doing
anything remotely personal related ...

GOD PLEASE GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I
CANNOT CHANGE THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN AND
THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE ... HELP ME TO BE STRONG
AND HELP ME TO KNOW THAT ULTIMATELY IT IS YOUR WILL NOT
MINE THAT WILL BE DONE! THANK YOU AND AMEN




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