SktzoStylz

My crazy and boring life
2004-04-19 03:08:27 (UTC)

To cry or not to cry

People say after the whole truth telling thing with "the
guy" That I should be like crying and stuff but I dont
feel like crying. I dont feel bad at all I feel good about
it. I took the "suggested walk", I even listened to
the "My Immortal" by Evanessence which is totally
depressing and I was fine. Nothing. Am I numb? Or am I
just really ok? I dont know...I'm tired.

I went to a youth conference and that was interesting. I
spent time with my buddy Louie which is always nice. I
love that guy. I'm going to have to give him up though.
He's got a girl and she may be "the one" so I have to get
used to that. I really really really dont like her. I dont
think she likes me. She's mad rude. I say hi and she
doesnt answer she doesnt even try to be my freind or even
civil. Now am I right when I say that arent you supposed
to atleast TRY to make freinds with your man's freinds.
Maybe she's hating. That would explain alot. She could
think I like him or something like that. stupid. Relax if
I wanted your man we wouldve BEEN going out awhile ago
okay. at least that's what I feel like tellin her. I'm
almost positive that he used to like me or he wanted some.
Crush, lusting whatever he was goin my way before he even
met her. Anyway! that's my buddy. I dont want to loose
him. I know that when a guy get's married his
relationships w/ other females changes and becomes less
than what it used to. Rightfully so but I dont want to
let him go. Not now, not ever. That would explain why I'm
feeling his brother. They're mmmmmaaaaaaddddddd alike in
some ways in other ways they're not which make me like the
bro not the buddy but anyway. I'm so sick of his girl. I'm
sick of her attitude. I feel like tripping her when she
passes by cuz she's so stank. Her attitude is just stank.
Whatever he's happy right. I dont know. Maybe I'll mention
to him cuz I dont want to me hatin his girl. At the same
time his bro doesnt like her either. I dont think any of
his family like her much. Gee I wonder why. *rolls eyes*
talk about unneccessary drama.

I'll talk more tomorrow I have to go.




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