Mary

Mary's Life Lessons
2004-04-19 01:39:57 (UTC)

i can be so stupid sometimes

Well from the last entry things old feelings i guess that i
had for Stefan came up again. Then i realized that i needed
to get over him because if i didn't i was going to drive
myself crazy for knowing he doesn't like me at all. so i
been ignoring him and i think it is better for me not to
even look at him. I played a mind trick again man i must
stop taking things so fucking seriously. I am always
looking for that special someone and you know what they are
never there. I am to involved with looking for my true love
and i don't even maybe realize some really good people that
i am missing you know. Well it's time to try and move on i
am just hurting myself really. I am becomeing that anti-
social girl again. I don't want anything to do with
anyone!. I know it's pretty bad. I just falling into that
whole and this time it is deeper than ever. I need someone
to pull me out but you know what there is no one. Forget
about anyone i should just leave change my name and become
a new person. I am sick and tired of being in Blairstown.
You know what if only people knew how i really felt. Well
you know i have to just stage my whole life.


Oh well going to cry into my empty soul!!!




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