Beowolf11602

Wolf Tales
2004-04-17 10:11:09 (UTC)

04/17/04

Well, It seems to have been a while since my last entry.
There is a lot to catch up on.

1. The Expedia Job

Today, I finally got the good news. I been officially been
offerred a part time sales position. Naturally, I
automatically accepted. This is the type of easy position
I've been hoping to get. I'll spend my time helping people
navigate a web site to make online purchases. AND "YES"
they'll pay me to do that. I really really really need the
extra income. My bills seem to be piling up again. I need
to take care of all the BS that has surrounded me
financially. I'm hoping having this other job will make a
difference for me. It should. I still need to find a way to
tell my boss, Darin. He's going to be mad that I have a
second job now. Well, what can you do?

2. Work.

It's seem to be an endless sea of BULL SHIT. I am really
beginning to hate the fact that Darin is so unorganized. It
causes so many problems that I just feel like calling in
sick. I don't want to deal with a lot of it. I can feel
myself having some animosity. I know I shouldn't feel this
way. I accepted the job with all the conditions that came
with it. But, we really need to get several more reliable
people. I hate being one of the few that can really make a
difference in the branch. Hazel needs to step up her game.
I don't want to see this be another attempt to make some
good happen within the branch and then see.

3. Karen

I think I'm begining to let my infatuation with her wind
down. But, now that is beginning to depress me. I know it
can't be meant to be. Besides, if it were ever meant to
happen with her it wouldn't happen now. I really really
need to get to know her better. I just can't be annoying. I
ask way too many questions like a 5 year old asking mommie
questions. Perhaps, I should just be my happy go lucky not
caring self. I know thats what attracted her a little in
the first place. I think I was trying too hard and it
became noticable. I just need to relax and let it flow a
lot better. Currently, it had seemed a lot more forced then
normal. I think she might be uncomfortable around me
because I think she knows I am having feelings for her.
Well, what can you do? All I can do is try to keep a better
distance and not let it bother me too much. It was fun
while it lasted maybe it could still happen but that is
thinking too far ahead and that type of thinking is was got
me in trouble in the first place. Live in the moment and I
know Karen does.

Well,
Carpe Diem




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